Poor Karma..that's why she had a bad dream.. She couldn't move all night.
You live in a mountain or near that.. So it is like you already have a huge music box.
I have heard there might be some sounds we human couldn't listen in the forest and it help people and animals to heal. Music box has the same effort as the forest. But it should be having a certian quality, not that small one you find in a shop.
I hope you and Karma have a wonderful dream.. [masako]
Yes, you should really take care of yourself. If that is what the doc told you, then just rest more. I was at the doc yesterday and even he told me not to carry or bend too much because he realised that my spine is not that fine. I must really rest and not doing too much things at home. Well, I think I haven't done anything much at home but Andrew sees it differently. He always think I am kind of possess of being working too hard on anything. He even said that when he sees me around it makes him nervous because I never stop ... Ah, well ... I must learn to rest at time when my body really need this. he, he, he ...
Almost every entry of yours I can feel and see your pain ... I wonder how live it day by day ... It's not that I have forgotten my own pain but it has always been a wonder how can I endure such condition ... I wish you all best & well-wishes for your health, my dear friend. Always feels the pain in my heart when I come to read and think; even worried of how you are doing all day ... But despite all of this, you are seems also very happy since you have Karma in your life.
I have you in my prayers, Alesia ... and (as always I would say) DO TAKE CARE, alright?
My mother-in-law who had terrible arthritis throughout most of her adult life used to crochet to take her mind off the pain, especially after it became difficult for her to do the fine motor sewing required to make quilts. I'm glad you have something like that to get you through the painful times. You remain in my prayers.[NightListener]
My dog loved ice cubes. I am clumsy and always seem to drop at least one when I am getting them out of the tray. He would snatch it up before I could blink, then run and hide under a table to eat it.[AlexKidd]
Your diary always make me smile. It is like you and Karma being together seem to has already been years. Not only a year or less than that. You are so much natural being together. From your diary I feel like hearing the sond your Karma make when she eats food and drink wather and even when she bark at somebody or track and others. I prefer the sound when she drinks water. hehe
There is never one of entry that never says about Karma ... She's always around. he, he, he ... Nice to know that you have her and that you are not that lonely after all ... Despite your health problems, Karma is your joy and Karma is your KARMA too!
Andrew had changed all the windows to new ones; costed us really expensive money! Pheeeww ... but it must be done since the windows were old and having only one thin glass instead of two which explained why in some rooms it is extremely cold in winter. So, all we did was to make the heater goes up to make sure the whole house warm enough. Towards the end of the year we received really BIG BILLS on our heater. I am glad that we have more than enough money for all the windows now (even in the cellar & attic) - so when winter comes it would not be such a problem anymore.
But our doors are still okay!
So, wish you all love & health, dear Alesia! Take care.
Sounds so beautiful.. Karma is getting clever and clever each day. She really is a good dog. I haven't seen any other dog that smile a lot with its owner in so many pics before ! Leo smiles at me sometimes but it is so hard to get his pic that way with me. So everytime I see you and Karma in a pic that make me smile.
Hey there Alessia .. i thought of checking on u ...i couldnt read all of ur previous updates ( too lazy to do that ) , so how was the MRI thingy ?...hope it was reassuring ?...and hope u r feeling good right now ?
This dream analyzing thing is really interesting , iam really interested in spiritual stuff ?...well u mind asking ur spiritual advisor to check my horoscope ( if she is into that ) , i was born on 27th january 1985 !...hope thats enough of an info [yotobia]
Analysing dream? Nice to do that if you are good at it ... Can you translate mine? The other nights ... not remember when exactly ... I dreamed that I ate bullets! Really strange ... I ate golden bullets. And then I ate some of those screws - silver screws ... Then that's was it. Odd kind of dream. What do you think it means? ...
[Excomysteriez]
I was like that when I had to drop out of college, aside from running out of money I procrastinated way to much. Now I think I am in the perfect mindset to get everything done when the assignment is given..or at least work on it at a steady pace until it is due. I hope that you will be able to go back to school soon though. :)
I hope the swelling goes down and that if the swelling is a sign of infection, that the infection clears up ASAP. I know the doctor's treating the problem. I know you'll stay pro-active about finding solutions.[NightListener]
You said you had a special leash so you might already have this one. I used to walk my dog, when I had one, on one of those extension leashs that unwind like a carpenter's tape measure and rewind when you release the lock on the handle.
Depending on how much walking you do on the edge of the road where you need Karma practically heeling, such a leash might give you and Karma some flexibility in allowing you to release the lock when she's pulling away and then relocking when she thinks she's free and puts up less resistance. I won't say more on that because you're in the best position to know if that would offer possibilities or not.
Walking in the morning is a great idea. If I didn't start walking before daylight, I would probably get a really harsh tan. The coolness of the mornig is nice. You feel like crap when you first set out. but by time you get back... you are ready toface the day.
The problem with Karma is that she is too smart. Once a being comes to self realization, he/she/it inevidably decides that there must be more to life than this. Karma is apparently in that stage now. Thats why you need to feed her all the crap that us fat beings eat. And that way, she can blame her misery on her weight.
Speaking of Fixed... You dont give Karma Green M&Ms do you? I understand that there is a certain "magic" associated with that particular color M&M, that might actually cause "Fixed" dogs to implode.[E pluribus Unam]
All the things that we take for granted as simplifying our lives have an ironic way of making life so complex when they don't quite do what they were designed to do!![NightListener]
I didn't think that one was a salamander...I thought it was a lizard. We have salamanders here, but they're always black and purple....
The snake is definitely not a garter snake, or if it is; it's a different shade of green than any one I've ever seen....and I've caught a lot of garter snakes. Interested in finding out which kind it actually was.....
That is one very green snake, and it looks like it's a good two feet in length of more? It's also one very red lizard....I wondered if you know the names of these two? I've never seen either here where we live, and lizards are exceptionally rare here. I would have thought it was too cold where you are for them, too.......
Keep up the good work Alesia........and keep posting them, too. It's really neat seeing them. You have a good day now, and I'll see you later. Michael
hi,glad all went well with ur test,i pray that dr.will have results for u soon.i love snkes cant wait to see that one.get better girl,take care
[Bridgit]
I am glad to know that things went well and your ear pain went away again.
I am not a snake person like Vanessa but I am so curious to know how he looks like.
First off... I am sorry to hear about your Brother and his wife. I am sure his cancer is a strain on the whole family. I hope everything turns out for the best.
Also.. I am glad to hear that Karma and Kizmet get along. I didn't realize that Karma was your foster child. But at the same time... I had a feeling that she was not a product on human conception.(i.e. not your natural child.)
I havn't gotten any e-mails from Karma yet. She seems to be much better trained than Kizmet. Kizmet should have been warned about writting E-mails to strangers. I kind-of blame your sister for that. But hey...Dogs can be pretty stubborn sometimes. And I am sure much of her time is spent with "D". Perhaps Kizmets E-mails are just a desperate cry for attention. He tells me in his E,mails that "D" often treats him like a dog. Kizmet tells me that Karma is teaching him to Bark in french. He says that will come in helpful if he ever decides to run away from home. He tells me french dogs have a better love life. He says he has no love life, and never even gets to go outside unless he says he needs to poop. He says thats why he lies so much. Because he doesn't need to poop very often,since they never feed him
. He says he will do anything for a little sunshine.
[E pluribus Unam]
BTW..If Karma is a genetic liar like his cousin... You had better keep him away from the internet. And never,I repeat never let him near the car keys. I think if Kizmet had money for gas, he would have been at my home in Texas by now, begging for Sanctuary from his cruel living conditions. He told me in his last e mail, that there were no trees or firehydrants within 40 miles of Your sisters house. I didn't tell your sister this however. Instead I inlisted the help of a certain old lady from Cabot Cove to check up on those alligations. [E pluribus Unam]
Unlike Nightlistener..I didn't know your sister had a sister. But I often snoop in on his comments and decided the mystery(of the two sisters) was too good to pass up.
I immediately went to his most recent of entrys and looked through the comments for feminine type names. As luck would have it...there were only three. I simply guessed at that point, that being sisters, you would have both had certain things in common. I keyed in on the number of entrys. You and your sister have well over 1000 each. This was a simulauity but not conclusive. Next I went for diary starting dates. I figured if you were sisters, your diarys very possibly started near the same time(lets say within a couple of months of each other). Suprisingly, you guys started your diarys only one day apart in August of 2005.
OH Yea! I have got you now! I thought. From that point I just varified everything, by looking at your profiles. Aha!! Both of you are from the Me state. Even Perry Mason couldn't get you guys off now!
I knew all those years of watching Magnum PI would pay off !!
Glad you're getting the MRI. It's not so bad with the open units. Just plan to relax and meditate and rest. Your topic was a relief considering that your title sounded terminal.
Regarding your mom, I have no right to say what I'm about to say--but when has that ever stopped me?
Six surgeries is A LOT. It might be worth seeing another doctor to get a second opinion. Carpal tunnel can sometimes be treated through exercise. Of course if your mom is having trouble with the nerves in her arm and with her shoulders, she may not be able to do the carpal tunnel exercises in which case her doctor would probably be correct. I hope she does a lot of reading about what the doctor has told her. Tears in the shoulder sound like surgery IS needed there. I don't know anyone who's been treated for nerve damage in the elbow. Obviously I'm not hanging around with tennis players.
But I've heard that the number of orthopedic surgeries performed in an assortment of countries is in proportion to the number of orthopedic surgeons in each country. That would make sense in a positive way, but possibly in a negative way as well. Obviously is there are few orthopedic surgeons, fewer surgeries will be performed even when the need for more surgeries exists, so I shouldn't be too quick to cast aspersions at orthopedic surgeons.
And yes I knew your sister had a sister. I was just pulling her leg. But I ought not pull too hard as there are already enough joint, muscle, and nerve issues in your family. If you're wondering why I feel compelled to play games with my comments in your diaries, I don't know Wii. (Yes, I know I'm misprouncing the word. I just can't get out of the game mode.)
It's nice to walk quite far and really enjoy the beauty of nature, the sun, the fresh air and the gentle wind. These few days I walked the forest on my own while Andrew and my father took care of Suada at home. Difficult was for me that I always got the feeling wanting to breastfeed her - it is not her that is looking for Mommy, but Mommy is looking after her! he, he, he ... I could not get away from her even for half a day. Feeling awkward to be without her.
You must rest well, dear and not walking too far ... Take care, my friend!
Glad to see you taking good care of yourself by eating healthy foods. When you're tired and in pain, it's hard to do the basics. Good going![NightListener]
MD, Thanks for your long comment in my diary. I love it when someone writes something as long or longer than my own comments. And again I have to ask you (rhetorically at least)--where did you get your energy?
I'm glad for this indication that you're feeling somewhat better. Good going on the Wii Fitness! I need to work on balance too. It was part of my physical therapy a year ago for my knee that I still should have been doing, but haven't been. It's like what you said about old friends--thinking about other things can put balance exercises out of my thoughts. Thanks for the reminder.
Wherever did you get your energy. I would have been so tired, I'd have had to get a hotel room for a nap before I could drive home after that much shopping. When we first moved to our home 25 years ago, we had to drive 5 miles to the nearest grocery. Now the roads that didn't go through or were gravel are 4 lane paved roads and we are within 5 minutes of a major shopping area. Even so, if I go to Wal-Mart, I usually have to come home to rest before going to Target. Of course I use large stores as "walking trails" because I like leaning on a shopping cart when I walk to ease the strain on my sore knee. I'm so impressed with the energy you summoned to keep up with D. And I'm impressed that she chose to spend the money she had stashed away on a Wii Fitness. She has her values in the right place as do you.[NightListener]
Are you feeling ok now ? I hope the doctor would be able to help you from getting oain.
I don't know I can keep doing Yoga or not. My chance to join itonly once a month and I think it wouldn't do any good unless I keep doing it at home. When I am at home I tend to watch movies on the DVDs. hehe
Tonight I am going to watch " Young Sherlock Holmes ". It should be fun !
Oh, I haven't eaten ice cream yet this year. You make me feel like eating it.
Good to hear Dr. Shannon is doing more than make odd comparisons. I'll be praying for good results on this MRI, and for you to find relief soon. Congrats on the weight loss, and every blessing that has come with it....... You have a nice weekend Alesia. It has finally cleared up here, and the sun is shining so nicely[commonsensechristian]
I'm so glad you're seeing the doctor and that's he's being attentive to your condition. Congratulations on the weight loss and getting into your old pants. You remain in my prayers.
l0o0o0ol....np !...many ppl have difficulties with my name , some call me Najwa , Nejma , rarely ppl get it right ! Well ...my name means ( Star ) in arabic , its also common among indians , pakistanis and iranis !...but it isnt so common among arabs !...some also say it has sawahili origins
Btw ur writing style remnds of one friend i met in MDD ( Hurting truth ) ..do u know her ?...u two have the same writing style as well as the long comment habbit ( which i dont minnd at all !...actually i love long comments ) .
Ooooh !..it seems like u have been through a lot !...and u sound like a strong woman !...i doubt i can ever handle troubles or be as muc strong
I like ur plans regarding the holistic energy and the masters degree ...this sounds like an interesting field !...does it have anything to do with psychology ?..
Iam glad to know u Alesia , u seem like a good person , and i wish we can be good friends .
Iam sorry that ur earlier childhood memories were not so pleasant , and sorry if i bothered u by asking !...I hope the MRI result will be reassuring and that u will be fine .
Btw my name is Najma and iam adding u to my faves , can i know whats urs ?
Hey! Wow.. Yotobia knows you also.. Coincidence i agree.LOL haha. anyway.. i prefer you drink coffee so you wouldn't be sleeeeepy:) okay? Oh yeah and thx so much for always being there. Thx! really! even though i should be in a bad mood right now i feel okay when i see someone cares. i read your entry.! :) Read my today's entry. okay? well..:D Yah i do like to be a ped. but im still thinking on going to music or doctor.. or teacher.. wooh..lots of options..can't choose one.. so uhmm..that's all.. thx for being there everytime.. take care..bye.:)
l0o0o0o0l ..well !...she is a muslim !...so i dont even know wether she knows that she was born on christmas or not !...yet another nice coincidince [yotobia]
One foot in front of the other.......just like they sing in the Christmas story. You keep doing what you're doing Alesia, and your dreams will become someone else's blessings. Good to hear that you had such a good session this time, and I'm going to be praying that it is only the beginning of a time of healing for you. [commonsensechristian]
Wow! I can see your determination! Keep it up! Just Pray and maybe God will answer it. Okay? Patience is also what it takes. Imagine 2 years. That long. Whoooh.. But good luck anyway.. Best wishes!! Take care for now. I will be waiting for your next entry. Anyway I have a reply for your latest comment on my last entry. I wrote my reply on my 3rd entry. That's all! Thx!! Bye for now..
You know you have a cute dog! If I would pick i would like a dog that is the same breed as yours. Anyway I saw the picture:) The page before this page. I mean.
I have a bag in the basement that includes a couple of birds' nests from when my son was in elementary school. He is now 31. It's time to throw them away, which I will do. It's just that I still remember how special I thought birds' nests were when I took one to school as a kid myself. Ironically every year birds build nests on top of our porch light and when they abandon them, I throw them away immediately.[NightListener]
Auuuwww! She is really a cute thing! Want to cuddle her meself! he, he, he ... Looks like a little cute fox too! except this - Karma is not red!
[Excomysteriez]
Did you have Karma spayed? If not, when she reaches maturity, you may need to rename her Karma Sutra. You may not become aware of her behavior until it's too late since she's already gotten so good at hiding in the high grass and bushes.[NightListener]
The changing light in the trees (and in the mountains through mountains I visited in Utah) makes all the difference in the emotional content of what one sees in nature. God was right to create light on the first day--not that God needs me for validation.[NightListener]
Your neighbors must either smell great or have the runs with all the laundry they do. I shouldn't say that because I do a lot of laundry too, but my home is free standing and the sounds wouldn't affect any neighbors.
I hope you find the cause of your sinus infection and discomfort so that it can be properly treated. You're in my prayers for healing which I seem to be saying a lot more lately than usual.
If the doctor isn't sure what is going on, I hope he is sending you to someone who might.........prayers sent for that purpose my friend. [commonsensechristian]
Oh, how nice it is that sun is shining over there at your place. Here, it is going to rain for days and on the weekend as well. Not really nice for me because tomorrow I will celebrate my 33rd birthday and had planned to do this in the garden. Now, we must stay inside. Well, what can we do ... Nature is working it's way and so I just accept this.
Just do take care of yourself - stay warm and eating healthy food as well. I have you in my prayers, Alesia. And Happy Friday too!
Becasue of the same reason that someday you want to live in private property I can't move on in an apartment from here. Even though our house is so old and got leaned right from the view of outsdie of the house by the earthquake we had about 14 years ago.
RYN: #1000 is still in the works. i want it to be "just right".
i did not grow up in the country, nor with green-thumbed parents, so a lot of what i'm doing in the backyard is new to me. i imagine that a life of this would make one healthy and wise to the ways of the world. so i shall continue on my quest for living knowledge through tending my garden.
you know, i didn't think of it that way: the centrifugal force of the Earth and EMF...DUH, Russell! really, never crossed my mind. oh the things we learn...
though you struggle at times, your story IS an inspiration. my prayers and incantations go out to you. i wish you health, strength, and peace.[invisyblninja]
You shouldn't have to jump for anyone like that......and I'm glad you didn't. Hopefully this guy will finally gain some common courtesy lessons, and put them to use.........[commonsensechristian]
It sounds like Doc S is very thorough, and cares........and good combo that isn't easy to find in a physician these days. Prayers sent for your health my friend, and for this doctor's ability to improve it quickly. Get all the rest you can..............[commonsensechristian]
Oh, heavy-duty antibiotic? I prefer not havin one even if I am extremely ill, but I think in your case you do need this. I really hope that things go fine for you, my dear friend. You are in my prayers.
[Excomysteriez]
So you are now in the season having thunders a lot. I remember you like thunders.. right ? But not good for Karma.
Maybe your sister left the note about you were now in bad condition of using the pc but I sometimes couldn't follow her to read all of her entries. hehe
Thank you for the website. I will check it out later.
Today Leo made a sound like human was whistling when I came back. It was so funny. I felt I was so welcomed by him. The sound he made is remind me about Native Amercians. When I watched one of those movies they always whistling like him toward in the air.
When I was small my brother and me really enjoyed to watch " Thunder Bird ". ( Is it correct to say ? )
Hope you feel better soon. You're don't react to barometric pressure changes preceding storms with the kinds of symptoms you're experiencing, do you? The ear pain could possibly be connected with pre-storm pressure changes, or could it? I don't know. My ears sometimes hurt on an airplane.[NightListener]
Oh, wow ... I am relief now. Very much, you know. I thought something had happened to you. I was so worried. I thought you might be so ill that you couldn't do anything - or you are having some personal problems - or some stupid people making troubles for you - etc. I thought a lot of you and I pray all the time that everything will be fine. I even sending prayer to your Karma that she take care of you! Wow ... now it was just the PC problem. Pheeeww ... Now I am in peace. he, he, he ...
But it seems that both of you are doing fine. Say, Kizmet sounded a bit jealous, right? he, he, he ... Well, good to hear that you are doing quite fine despite your heatlh problem. Just do take care, honey.
I'm so glad you're okay, but sorry that you've been feeling unwell. I was so worried about you all week. Each time I would check to see if you'd updated, I would say a prayer that you were alright. I know a lot of people don't think of others on the net as real people, but I really do, especially here at mdd.. I'm just glad you're back. Take care.[Fairie Beans]
I am glad to know that you are ok. Only computer 's problem why you hadn't update lately.
I am so interested in " Star Trek " lately. I haven't watched this series yet. Only a glance on the TV or so. I will start to watch it very soon. I hope you and your mother will have a good time together over the movie. And I hope E's leg will get better soon.
I hope you are doing well.. It is just unsual you don't up date for a while.
I found interesting book at the book store my niece is working. It is all about how to use your dog's fur into kntting. I didn't buy it though. I never seen such a book before.
I also met a dog near by when I just got out of the house to go to the office. He or she remind of me your dog Karma. It is like your Karma having a sister or a brother in Japan.
Haven't seen you here for quite awhile. I do hope that your are doing fine despite the many health problems you got in the past few days, weeks and months. Hope that Karma is looking well after you too. Been missing you and have you in my thoughts.
Oh, your mother still wears high- heeled shoes at 68. She must be so concerned about her look and want to be in style. Our tea ceremony teacher is a little younger than your mother. She also wears them. I sometimes really worry about her when she complains about her legs hurt.
Karma is really a good girl. She is going to learn more and more what is making her life easily. She has a capability to know it from her experience being with you. You are a good mother and a good teacher of her.
What you wrote about B and her belonging make me smile. Oh, they are so much .. Is she always keeping her teddy bear as her compnay ? It sounds so cute. I don't know how old is she though. No wonder.. It must be really hard working to get all of belonging into the suitcase. You did great, really !
Have a nice weekend ! Here in Osaka we have been having sunny day. [masako]
Sounds like you both had a really good time, and I know exactly what you mean about being glad to be back home. Dorothy sure had that right when she said it.
You have a great weekend Alesia, and enjoy that weather while it lasts. We both know that all too soon it will be gone for another year. So get out there and let Karma enjoy it, too.
Hope you feel more rested soon. Reflective material on the windows can keep heat out. Even aluminum foil with shiny side facing out can make a big difference. If you attach the aluminum foil to cardboard inserts cut to fit the window, you can take the inserts in and out as needed.[NightListener]
I am glad to know that you and Karma were having a good time together on the trip ! It must be quite a challenge both of you. Karma sounds like expanding her experience.
I can hear chicken in your entry! ha, ha, ha .... and that is really very funny. Well, today I shall cook some chicken too. But not curry or soup; not grilling - but I will grill this chicken in the bamboos of which Andrew bought from the Asian shop here. I told him to bring the least 8 - 10 bamboos because I want to send 1 to my mother-in-law, 1 for Donny (Andrew's bestfriend) and 1 for my good neighbour.
Good to hear you seems to be well today. I wish you a nice Sunday! Here it is really warm! I gonna spend much time with the family in our garden today and tending my roses too!
i haven't asked you in a while...how is your back? body? i read here that you are doing better...but what's the journey been like since last we spoke?[invisyblninja]
You know, it's amazing that in most of your entries it is all about chicken! he, he, he ... Surely makes me really go hungry and slobbering like Karma! he, he, he ... Is Karma sloberring too? All the time? he, he, he ... Ok, I was just kidding! I feel well this morning and had a late breakfast alone with Suada sleeping in the baby basket. No one is here and so I have my peace for this weekend.
I wish wish you too, a lovely Saturday ... and I shall come here again (soon) to post a new entry again. Until then ... bye!
I should watch The Curious Case of Benjamin Button ! It soujds so exciting and I am so curious how he spent his life. I just know a little about it from the trailer.
Yes, C and the woman in the movie the same. They both started to paint again after years passed since they gave up to paint. But I didn't know that C just started to paint again about 2 1/2 years.
You are like my mother who prefer to take a long time to finish something. And on the other hand I don't want to take a long time to finish something.. hehe
You lost your joy to painting.. But there are so many you feel they are enjoyable to do in daily. It is wonderful!
No, I haven't watched " Curious Case of Benjamin Butto " yet. I know a little bit about how the story is going on. I have been so curious to watch it. If the DVD is available I will rent it.
Me,too. I need to get a good sleep tonight. I haven't been having an enough sleep these days. I tend to stay up until 1 am and go to sleep. I used to have so much healthy circle for a day. I should get back.
Before yesterday I watched " I am David ". I think it is originary from the true story. I am not so sure though. The boy was able to get out the jail to meet his mother. He got caught in the jail unjust punishment. Probably in the war time.
I like the movie specialy when he met an olderly woman.. I like her room as there are so much pantings on the wall and they are all painted by herself. She reminds me about your sister C.
I too, feeling tired ... and very, very so goddamn tired. Sleepless nights and the hard time after gave birth to my Suada. Well, Suada means beautiful and luck; Suada is also the goddess of gentle words & philosophy. It was Andrew that found that name and we both did agree on this. Anyway, she will be the ONLY ONE for now that has got that special name ... Suada Nova - anyway, she is very special in her own way and she will someday know what her mother has been through to keep her safe ... It is pretty scary, you know ... But all went well now. I am so glad.
In time when everything is settle a bit, then I shall return here. But in between times (of course) I shall leave notes.
Until then ... I wish you too, good health & many happiness. Please do take care, my dear friend.
Oh, I forgot to tell you. I am glad you enjoyed watching the trailer of " Bed of Roses ". It is so beautiful,isn't it ? So it is the first video you could watch from the yutube. hehe Thanks. I became a honor sender. [masako]
" Protestant Christians didn't wear green on St. Patrick's. They were suppose to wear orange. The wearing of orange was suppose to symbolize the warring between the Catholic Irish and Protestant English. It is a sad thing to me that some Protestants actually did wear orange. The warring couldn't be put aside for even one day."
Yes, it sure is so sad.. They shold at least forget about the warring for one day.
We have Mother's Day at the second sunday in May and Father's Day nest month on the second sunday. Usually people remember Mother's Day better than Father's Day. Do you have Father's Day in the USA ? 5th May is Children's Day as I mentioned here in MDD a year ago.
We maye have a lot of clebration but I think you Amercian have more clelebration than here in Japan for family. It is so nice !
Tomorrow morning supposed to be a lot colder than today in Japan so you might have the similar wetaher out there. Please be careful the tempreture.. It would be get down sharply. Take an enough rest for tomorrow.
Hope you find relief for the cramping. Crocheting was always a great way to distract my mother-in-law from the arthritic pain she had experienced throughout her adult life.[NightListener]
Of course we celbrate Mother's Day. I gave her some money as present as usual. My brother gave her a compact mirroe with the figure of Russian doll on the cover and her name on it. It is so cute.
The movie I was talking abut it has a happy ending. But I just thought it might be dangerous to get inside of house you just met a little bit before.
Oh, sorry time came to work. I will tell you more later.
I know you probably don't like the idea of using a cane. I use one on occasion. I do most of my longer walking in stores that have shopping carts where I have something to give me a little extra support. If I walk extensively, the burning sensation builds up in my knee and my legs sometimes begin to feel like I'm walking through mud. Would it be possible for you to carry a purse or shoulder bag large enough to hold a collapsable cane which could be brought out once you hit the point in a long walk where you wish you were home in bed?[NightListener]
Then April sighed and stepped aside and along came pretty little May. --Rodgers and Hammerstein, Carousel (1956 film version was filmed in Augusta, Maine)
The colors of the rhododendrums reminded me of that film.
Yes, you are a mother of Karma..happy mother and a child.
I am glad you enjoy reading the magazine.
You make me smile,too. Seems like our taste are the similar when it come to on roses. I really like yellow and tight pick at the bottom one,too.
There are so many pink roses.. It stand out among them and make me feel so cheerful !
I like to see wild flowes.. But unfortunately I live in the city. The only way I can see them is from your diary. Thanks !
I am sorry about your roses. How people can be so rude.
We don't have a garden here. My mother really loves flowers though. They are all in pots. Once somone took one of my mother's flowers pot and throw it on the road and it broken. Terrible.. It was a woman. She sounded so angry at her boyfrienda or husband. I could guess as listening their conversation at the night. But I didn't know she took it on the flower pot.
RYN: I was just kidding about being put off by your sequiturs preceding the shepherd's pie. I love playing with juxtapositions.
As for religious belief, all the world's a smorgasbord. I'm Jewish with as much emphasis on the -ish as on the Jew-. When people of different backgrounds marry (my wife grew up Catholic), it's natural for each to be changed by the experience. That doesn't mean we have to close ourselves to our past, but there is an opportunity to open oneself to other dimensions and to new experiences outside what one grew up with. Life is filled with mystery and contradiction and paradox. When something makes internal sense, one doesn't have to justify it to the world. Or so I think. At the moment. Or maybe my outlook is as muddied as Karma's behind. How's that for a sequitur?
Interesting transition: You went from Karma's dirty back end to fleas and ticks to shepherd's pie (which is one of my favorites). Somehow though my appetite clenched at Karma's dirty back end.
I also took a much needed nap this afternoon and feel better as well. Being old has some advantages.
Glad you're feeling a bit better. Hope more resfulness is on its way for you. I don't envy anyone having to go out in the rain to relieve herself. It isn't easy being Karma.[NightListener]
I like your pics of flowers specailly the wild voilets one. I can't see them in bloom naturaly.
I am so happy to hear your nice word for the magazine of SGI I sent. I hope you will find more from it. I guess President Obama and D.Ikeda are now good friends each other. Thier way of thinking about the world is so close from each other. I hope when the president Obama will visit here in Japan both of them can meet in person. They have already exchnaged the letter or anything like that as far as I know.
Actually the idea of sending you the fabric is so exciting.. hehe You have a good skill of sawing and I would love to know how you are going to use it in your house.
Oh, you have been having a tough time with someone who had to showed up haven't showed up and there are so much going on with the landlord. They should be all fixed up for you to live safety.
I hope you have a better day tomorrow and much better day after tomoorrow. As a day passing go by your favors all should be heard at the end.
I'm sure that as long as Karma gets to lay next to you, there won't be any trouble at all. Sounds like she has already bonded tightly with you, and vice-versa...........you'll both be just fine away from home--because wherever you are is home. [commonsensechristian]
Really lovely entry; so much lovely sweet memories of island and boats ... I know that I may have been grown up in the jungles but my people also living depends on the river & we have so many small boats; especially kayak. I used to climb in my father's boat or kayak and play around with it down the river. I was kind of stubborn and never listens to my grandma when she yelled to me that girl don't do such thing. But I was not really that kind of girl - girl; I am a very tough and tomboy type and for this reason why I am tough up to this day and never let anyone steps on my head - I have always been independent despite the 'taboos' for being born as a girl; I broke that line and I managed to showed that to my own people that we woman too, are as good as men.
So, imagine this ... That my father were a few times got really ill and the family needs the food - either I go alone in the jungle to find some things or I went down to do little fishing with his boat. I am a goddamn tough girl! Scares my grandma when she saw I carry on my shoulder a rattan basket full of fish! She thought I was born wrong as a girl - I should be a boy! Since then she never says a thing - not even the other people. They see how much brave & strong I was and I kept the family safe & enough meals to eat when my parents went down (for awhile). And for this reason too, why I studied really hard at school and earned my Degree so that I would not live in poverty anymore. This time ... my home, my life and my own family has a very comfortable life - to my people my life here in Germany is HEAVEN. I thanked God for these all ... Yes, I am blessed! Truly & really blessed!
So, I am off again for lunch but I would not eat any chicken today! I have not eat chicken for the last 2 weeks because I have not the energy to do any special cooking. It is always a simple dinner that I prepared for my family and Andrew did the cooking on the weekend. Thank God that man can really, really cook! The last he prepared curry chicken with chutney; and it tasted really good! As good as that from the restaurant! He feeds me again and again as he noticed how much I eat his curry chicken. He was so happy because of this and he keep on pushing the rice into my plate until I can't eat no more. he, he, he ....
So, I wish you a lovely Wednesday from here, my dear Alesia. And I wish you all love & health. Yes, do take care and do not walk too long! Hug Karma for me! She's really such a cutie! Wish I could hug & kiss her!!!
I am glad to know that the package reaced your place safety ! The fabric is that I bought the shop of Japanese dolls. They are used for dolls's kimono. I thought with your sewing skill you will make something nice with it. I am really happy to know you liked them all. The card I sent you is the best one in the shop. I love it,too. I haven't seen it last year in the shop so I guess it is quite new.
I have watched both " Notting Hill " and " My Fair Laday ". I love both of them. They are my movies ! But I haven't watched " Lake House " yet. So you know the next one I will rent is this one at the shop. hehe
Hope you have a nice day ! I just wanted to write a quick note. [masako]
The movie " Beyong Borders " is a great movie. But a little sad at the end,right ? It is the movie you can call " the true love story ". But there is more to tell in the movie.
Walking with Karma is nice thing ! I need to walk more myself for my health. But around here we don't have a clean air for walking.
I am sure you are going to make new freinds with Karma as walking around. Everybody couldn't pass by without saying Hello to both of you. Yes, Karma is such a cute and friendly dog !
I am still have a one day off. It is " Golden week " then. My work day will start on 7th again.
Good to know about this. Well, just do take care, my dear Alesia. Walking is really good and sometimes it makes you even more tired than usual; the sport thing, you know. he, he, he ... But do not overdo it. Until then .... lovely Tuesday.
[Excomysteriez]
When I increase my exercise over what it usually has been, I sometimes get leg cramps. Is it possible that your legs are getting used to the extended walking you've been doing? I hate sharp leg cramps (Charlie horses). I keep thinking that must be what a heart attack feels like only in the chest instead of the legs. I'd do anything to avoid leg cramps:
warm bath
gentle massage with an electric massager
ice packs
heating pad
rocking in a rocking chair
rolling back and forth with my chest and stomach on a large pilates ball while resting on my knees
lying on my side in bed gently stretching my legs (too tight stretches sometimes induce the cramps)
I've been told that standing up with the body weight on the legs and the feet planted flat on the floor helps stop the cramps but that doesn't always work for me. When I start having cramps, I sometimes cut back on the exercise for a day or so and then begin building it up more gradually again. Just the thought of leg cramps makes me hurt.
Thank you for giving me a tip what I should watch next. I am looking for " Beyond Borders" !
" Angle Eyes " is telling something about abuse a little. The heroine's father had been beating his children when they were small. But there is no scene about it just talking between her and her mother. The rest of all are so wonderful and hart warming. I love happy ending story.
I sent you smething the other day as I said before. It on its way.. to reach your place.
I will write you later more. Have a nice day !
Masako[masako]
I love the nice weather here in Michigan,our windows have been open too.MMM fresh air/now after all the rain we got I need to mow our lawn after I borrow one.Hope u have a nice wk.end[Bridgit]
What lovely pictures your sister took of you and Karma. The smiles you two are wearing say it all. What an absolute miracle and blessing it is that you have found one another. The love you share shines right through. It is a joy to me to read your diary and you inspire me every day to continue on my own healing journey. It truly is miraculous to see the life rising up in you since Karma arrived. I am so happy for you both. You are blossoming and it's a beautiful thing.
You sound like someone who has been through detox of one sort or another--perhaps related to your diet or perhaps your medication has changed. Certainly pets can help us produce serotonin to produce a higher state of clarity and well being. Perhaps walking Karma has increased your exercise, burned calories, raised your HDL, improved your blood pressure and/or helped your circulation. Perhaps the fresh air has helped your breathing and improved your oxygen intake. Perhaps Karma's affect on helping you feel connected to your neighbors has increased your sense of community, safety, and well being. Perhaps you don't feel so alone anymore. Perhaps having to care for Karma has forced you to regulate your life a little bit more and given you a reason to get out of bed in the morning. Perhaps your photography has stimulated your creative passion and given you a greater sense of purpose. Perhaps you are happier and healthier because you're disciplined and work at it. Perhaps your expressions of gratitude to life and your sense of having been awakened from emotional hibernation have given you a rebirth of sorts. Perhaps things are looking up. Perhaps writing in your journal has given you something to turn to when you might have otherwise wondered what to do next. Perhaps you finally looked in the mirror and liked what you saw. Perhaps you found your inner smile. Perhaps you've forgiven the past. Perhaps you've let go and have moved on. Perhaps. Perhaps. Perhaps.
is it wrong for the photographer to say she LOVES your pictures!
Your eyes are the exact color of blueberries! i never noticed and I have known you for 36 years! You don't look your age either! you look more my age then your age! [clearlycrzy]
* This is Karma when she's happy! he, he, he* I love the pics, my friend! You look really sooo happy and sooo lovely - especially with that blue shirt and green earings. Are those green, right? he, he, he ... Oh, Karma looks really lovely and cute. She looks so calm and comfortable in your arms; she felt so much loved by you and feeling so secure - because it seems that she shows this. You know, in these pics you look so much fit and healthy that no one can guess how many times you went ill. But these pics of you & Karma are really, really so lovely!
I wish you well and happiness, Alesia. And hope that smile on your lips always curve sweetly that way. Wish you a very nice Wednesday! Hug Karma for me too!
Gosh! You have D's gorgeous blue eyes and skin tones. I blew up your face to 400% to see if your skin is as beautiful as it looks at 100%. It is.[NightListener]
these pictures are beautiful! I can tell you're so happy in them! Your eyes are just so bright! :) The last picture I saw of you on here doesn't even look like the same woman. They really are beautiful. :D
I wish you good health, my dear friend. Someone did asked me ... how did I ever get thru the pain and burdens of this life that long? I would say, 'I have no choice but to go forward. Even if you did not do anything about it, it is already a decision made - maening that you are not goin anywhere. So, what choice do I have? I move forward ...' And so, in your pain & suffering I held you close in my heart & mind; in my prayers I have you healed, my dear friend. Oh, do take care.
How does Karma take it? I think she must know her master is ill ... Wish you a lovely Tuesday.
that's a really cute creation! wish i can do one like that. i love doing things with my hands too. but nowadays all i gotta do is click the shutter of a camera. well, at least i still have that.
yeah, quite a collection of books you got there. i LOVE books! but my collection is back home. here i only got some... passed on by friends and a few we ordered online.
hey, i hope you are feeling better? how was the medical appointment?
Passing by to check on everyone as I am enjoying my lunch - had some salad with Greek cheese and homemade garlic bread and mushroom soup! Totally alone after the kids went off to school & kindergarten and Andrew to work. He try to comes back earlier for fearing that the baby comes at anytime! he, he, he ... I've no worry on that at all. I think most men tend to get panic so easily when it comes to pregnancy. Hey, love that bag. So blue. And I can see some collection of books behind ... but could not guess what!
I wish you such a lovely Monday, my dear Alesia. Do take care, alright?
When I have to be around someone who is very critical, sometimes it helps me to imagine what it must be like to be that person hearing that critical voice inside his or her own head all day long. People who think in critical terms are generally as hard on themselves as they are on others.
It might sound cruel but I promise it's not! Dogs have to be taught the correct way to act around anything from kids to cars. Karma may need to be broken of the habit of getting scared or uneasy. If you hold her and protect her, the fear will continue and may even get worse. :( Oh what is that guys name. >.< The guy who does Dog Whisperer. He has information about it on his website.
We had an issue with our dogs when they were elt out. They would bark and growl at the neighbors dog..even if the other dog was sitting with their back to them. Through a series of small steps we have been able to stop that completely and now even the fighting between my dog and my mothers has stopped completely.
It's not that you're showing you aren't there for them, it's the opposite, actually. You're showing them that you are unafraid and so they shouldn't be either. :)
I thought I am right about D..I am glad to hear that. Leo would do the same reaction when cars a lot around. I will write you tonight. Thanks. [masako]
It is so wonderful to see a deer in pesron out there ! I have checked C's entry and saw it.. It is so cute.I just wanted to leave the quick note.. Have a nice day ! [masako]
I am glad you and your niece had a good time together. I think Karma try to get the place between you two. So that she can get a good treat from both of you. I can understand what you were talking about Karma as my old dog Shiro was the same as her. She always to get an attention of me and not so happy when I was doling something seriously and let her out of circle. She always started to howl to get an attention. I had to cover my hands over her eyes.. I don't know why not her mouth. After she got my attention she calmed down. And then I back to do something then she howled again. It looked endless. She loved me and I loved her still love her. The same thing has builed up already between you and Karma. I guess this is not that Karma always do to another people except you. It is like a token of love from her to you.
Leo is pretending to be asleep as close to music box now. Before that he was so noisy and barked outsdie as the track was passing by in front of the house. He ate all of food a little bit before and is full now.
It is certianly precious morment of your niece and Karma. The last one, Karma is smiling so happily.
I have been worried about my comment the other day I hope I didn't offend you. Life is so precious. It is so nice spending your time with someone you love.
I found a bunch of them and they are pretty stylish too. I was proud of myself for actually buying professional looking outfits. :D I might just have to take some pictures and show you guys. :)
Karma is a good dog to be a freind with for B. Your mother should let her play with Karma. When I was child I had a lot of time being with dogs. This memory still one of my treasures in my life.
I hope things like this won't eat you up totally. Leo has just started to eat his breakfast. He seems to get hungry when I sit near him. Then he starts to eat his breakfast or dinner. The name is different but the same food. haha
It is sunny day here. I hope a lot of hops are hidden in spring's air.
~Beautiful springs brought Life and flowers blooms to present beauty of what nature gave us.~
Good Morning, my dear Alesia;
It is 7:30 in the morning and I just had my early breakfast. Really so still and quiet outside, and it is raining softly at this time since yesterday afternoon. But very peaceful and very beautiful since my garden now are filled with blooming tulips and daffodils - even daisies seems to bloom even healthier and bigger this season and I am completely touched by this beauty. Especially when it is in the early morning - with this gentle rain falling and no wind; just the silentness. Very, very beautiful ...
I have my laptop here with me and so I am not doing much but sitting comfortably on the sofa. Andrew served the breakfast on trays for me and that is very strange that I am not used to be serve that way because whole of my life it is I, the one that always serve the husband and the family. Today, he did this and he did it pretty well and he served & prepared wonderful breakfast for the kids with warm bread at the ready (of which he put it in the oven) and making hot cocoa for them. The kids were more than happy that Papa is in the kitchen and waiting for him to settle with them. Only Mama sits in the corner with the seperate table & breakfast.
But the changes did not bother the kids at all and they think that it is some kind of new adventure that Mama is sitting somewhere else. he, he, he ... Kids are very funny indeed. But they were told that Mama is at the ready to go to the hospital at anytime in the few weeks to come - so 'BABY' is coming soon! - they said, excitedly!
So far I am doing very, very fine and my health is good. But Andrew is still worried and he keeps on warning me not to do any housework at the moment and so he told our housemaid Mrs Schmidt to work twice at our house at the moment and three times a week when the baby comes. She has not the problem with it at all and she's very happy indeed that soon a new family member will arrive. She said, "It is must be another cute little angel!" I laughed. She always thinks that my babies are all cute little angels. She has been taking care of this family for nearly 6 years now and she became such a very, very close friend than most people. I can never ever thank her enough for her service, trust, loyalty and friendship. You know these days ... who can you ever really trust at all? A good friend needs to be really qualified to be trusted and love - Well, Mrs Schmidt is one!
And how about you, my dear? Is spring there already at your place? And you shouldn't have forgotten to close the window before going to sleep. Here we open the bedroom windows a little when it is really, really too warm inside the room - the kids have special windows with security locks and so it can be open ajar in summer time. No thief can open this because it has special locks and nets outside the frame which preventing insects to come in.
I read back few of your entries - saw some pics of Karma. Oh, such a cute thang! I laughed reading of how wild & crazy she can be too. What a thing. So far I think you are really indeed glad that she is there with you, right? Then loneliness is not too heavy for you because Karma is there with you.
I wish you a good day and a good morning from here, my dear. It is not even 8 am and I am writing fast than usual. Been feeling fresh at this time but after this I shall return to bed again and rest. So, do take care of yourself and do not forget the window, darlin.
You gave her Rescue Remedy.. There was some time I gave it to Leo. I was not sure at the time It woked him well or not. Karme got quieted after that.. It seemed to work out really on her.
I hope you will feel better soon and noise that became part of you and Karma's problem will soon to be gone away.
Ahhhh shrimp! I can eat shrimp and other seafoods in whatever way they are cooked. I can eat fish and seafood everyday! Too bad we don't get fresh ones here in Afghanistan (as you know it is a landlocked country. all we get here fresh is river fish). We do get frozen ones from an Italian store in Kabul. It does not taste as nice but better than nothing. When we travel we make sure to eat as much seafood ad we can.
Thanks, MD, for your note detailing elements of the photographs. I feel as if I've been somewhere within the sense of place you've created as a result of the combination of photos and stories.[NightListener]
RYN: poignant observations. though, i cannot so readily categorize myself into type A-Z or B-Y. if anything, i have tendencies to adjust the focus of my lens, to suit the scene. i can be narrow, wide, telephoto...i also equip myself with filters now and then, red #5, yellow #10, solarized...in this way, i am able record the moment for not only "what it is", but how i "see it". still, all modes accomplish the same end result: i am still taking stock on what i assess--so am limited by perspective and perception at all times. to put it another way: regardless of whether i "see the whole picture", i am only seeing the picture in front of me--and not necessarily from any other angle.
the fodder (for thought) is a feast. let us sup from it together! :)
while writing is near and dear to me, i've found that the titles often come first--before the words roll out. and, if not then, it will take one to five iterations before i land on a title. for me, it is not patience or an expression of energy...it just is. like breathing. what takes more from me is the act of writing itself. i tend to be too complex at first and have to revise, revise, revise before i land on something that i can understand--and hopefully also those who may be reading me.[invisyblninja]
Iam happy to hear that you both are better.Where u live sounds cool,I have never been before I live in the United States.Michigan to be exact.I have had that kind of shrimp before,it`s yummy.Enjoy ur company.Take care,goodnight[Bridgit]
I eagerly await those pics of your community. I have a feeling your hometown is the type Denise and I dream of in that New England region of our country.
Your food comments have made me hungry, and now I'm anxious to get home to raid the refrigerator. There's some nice homemade coleslaw in there, and it's got my name on it.
I've missed dropping by, but I think I'm going to be freed up a little better now. You take care Alesia, and I'll see you soon, Michael.
RYN: you could call it longing, yes...or perhaps it is more i wish you to know the LOVE and JOY of the Wide Angle lens! of course, its use is not always called for, mostly for scenery. i could show you some of my portfolio...so you can see what i mean.
(i was in no way knocking your current camera.)
coming up with fancy-schmancy entry titles has always been the name of my game. glad you noticed.[invisyblninja]
I've gotten out of the habit of carrying a camera when I travel--one more thing to drag through airport security. And I've narrow mindedly taken the attitude that anything I'd want a picture of I could find on a postcard or on the internet.
And yet your photos and C's photos are so individual and unique. What postcards usually don't capture are those intimate scenes and arrangements that exist in private areas of our lives, by which I don't mean a drawer of s..x toys, but rather in the personal spaces where we inhabit in the most ordinary of moments--the places one gets to by going up farm driveways, down dirt roads, through alleyways between backyards and garages and on walkways that cut through from one block to another.
Going downtown with my mom on the streetcar when I was a child gave great views of backyard life throughout the city when the street car followed tracks that went where cars couldn't go. Front porches on summer afternoons and evenings can also be intimate--more so in the days before air conditioning is some regions drove relaxation inside during the summer and backyard decks and patios made getting fresh air more private and less accessible. Drive-by shootings haven't helped front porch life any either.
Of course I'm romanticizing. William Inge's play "Picnic" shows how claustrophobic front porch life in a small community can be when everyone knows everyone else's business and doesn't have enough business of their own to think about. (Sounds like me at MDD, doesn't it? Talk about a remark hitting close to home!)
In any case one of the things I most like about the photos of the old tree is that it's not something someone can see just by driving by. Perhaps you were walking by. I don't know, but because of the zoom effect, there's a sense that you're standing closer to that tree than the road or sidewalk. The car in the lower left corner suggests a neighbor's driveway which is an indication of how close houses are to one another. Of course that car could also be interpreted as being in a more open parking area on a farm or country acreage rather than on a residential street in a small town. The wagon wheel(s) and flag, the picket fence.
The building with the garage door is also intriguing in that it could be a garage, but then why would the door be for only one car? It could be a small house with an attached garage and a second floor. It could even be the garage end of a much larger house than what is suggested by what is shown in the picture. It could be a guest house or studio built into a converted garage that use to house two cars. Or it could be "mother-in-law" house built to accommodate a relative, grown child, or renter on the property belonging to the house on the left which might have a screened porch partially hidden by trees or a more modern alcove entrance in front of it. The photo is rich in both details and possibilities. Even the flag is interesting as it suggests the American flag, but the field of stars is different. And it doesn't correpsond to any of the state flags I could find either. And yet it's presence suggests good old Yankee/New England patriotism that goes back in time and is displayed as a natural statement of someone whose identity is clear to oneself. The tree itself suggests history and survival through harsh winters for more years than any one of us has lived. It suggests heritage and deep roots and core strength. And the large knot hole also suggests that the tree is teeming with life.
Oh, they really are in interesting shape ! I love the pic of the lake.
You are swimmin sometimes in the water of the lake in summer ? As you guessed I don't have that opportunity here. My parents's home town Awaji Island allowed us to do something we couldn't do here in Osaka when I and my brother were child. Like fishing and swimming in the water of the sea. (Actually I just floating with a floater. I am a hammer. hehe ) Sometimes we picked up some creature looked like a shell from the river. I found all of insects are bigger than the one in Osaka. We took some crickets there and brought home.
When I was child I was enjoying the nature more to nowdays.
I don't have an air conditioner in my room either. But the room we set our TV was in have it. They tend to have me get sick at the end. So better not to have it in my room until I find one that is working really good.
Have a nice day with Karma !
P.S By the way her outfit looks really cute ! But I don't think she need to have that one around her mouth since she is really a gentle and nice dog. No one would get hurt by her.
[masako]
I like these photos. The ones of the big old tree and its surroundings capture an essence of rural Maine. Ironically I found some roads outside Seattle that were reminiscent to me of some of the roads we travelled in Maine. [NightListener]
What's Karma like after getting caught in the rain or after a bath? I bet she's like a little mop. If the rug had been sopping wet before she lay on it, you probably wouldn't have been able to tell how wet it had been after she absorbed as much water from it as she did. I take it your bath wasn't interrupted by a phone call. If the wetness didn't smell like urine, it probably wasn't, but if I had to pee in the middle of the night and didn't have the opportunity to do so and if someone else flushed a toilet, I don't know if I could hold it for very long. But in my case, you'd have no doubt what it was. (TMI?)[NightListener]
Oh, it sure is looks like lobster claw ! I never seen this kind of plant before in my life. It is good to remove rash from the road for Karma's sake. She can't be hurt this way.
I just got back from the lesson of belly dance. It is so sunny here in Osaka like we already have summer which I don't like it. I was born in summer but I hate summer in Osaka. Maybe you don't like winter there even though you were born in winter.. right ?
Those people are so rude ! They shouldn't have waken up that early to make noise to disturbe other people from having a good sleep.
I am a private person,too. But the road in front of the house keep having some noise makers passing by. So it is always get Leo's nerve. Then he trys to bark outside and then after he did, he turned his face toward to me to get goody. I know I have spoiled him.However tonight is an exceotion. He hasn't asked me about it so far.
It is friday's night ! I really relax right now. I hope you have a nice day with Karma. Oh, the time you go outside with Karma is so early. Please be careful to walk in the dark.
Just came by to check on you and leave a short note for awhile. I am actually so tired after a week got so ill and the whole family are packed with sinuses problems, fever & flu - a complete package of winter/springs fever! And now, I got allergy from the blooming season - some flowers are not really nice to me - but that is okay. The nose is running all the time, really. So far I am fine - though actually I must stay in bed and rest (according to the doc) - I was being warned not to walk anymore due to the back problem and muscles cramping on both of my legs. It was worse and I got cramped legs all night - there are times I just could not walk because of it. I must be cautious as my pregnancy is not really in a good condition at this time though the unborn child is perfectly healthy - but not the Mama.
So, if I were not to be online too long; please to forgive that I have not come to visit you. When things go well and I am fine again I shall come again. But anyway, you know too well that I shall not forget you, my dear friend. So, do enjoy your day and weather over there. Here it is really lovely. No more cold and no more snow - little rain and sunny day for 3 days now. Really lovely.
Thanks for your note about nutrition. I wish more people would present healthy eating ideas as you did. I need all the reinforcement I can get.
I'm fortunate enough to live in a house, one that is L-shaped which has allowed me to sing and play a keyboard with earphones in the basement or in parts of the second floor at 2 or 3 AM far enough from where my wife is sleeping so as not to disturb her or anyone elses. But since the piano is in the main part of the house, I have to restrict my playing to when my wife is either not home or at home and not in need of silence which is most of the time. A few times I've forgotten how late it's gotten and have reawakened her after she's fallen asleep. I'm trying to be more careful.
I grew up in apartments, lived in one the first five years of our marriage, and also for a year during which my wife and I were separated almost 20 years ago. Not only were there sounds from other apartments and from the parking lot outside my bedroom window, but there was one tenant who eventually got evicted for getting drunk and causing fires by not being attentive to his meal preparations. There was never any fire damage outside his unit, but there were times that the hallways maintained a burn smell for days.
She ended up naming the beta... ellsberry becuase her fish has red sox colors and she thought ellsberry sounded like a red berry ... ellsberry is a red sox player[clearlycrzy]
Isn't it amazing that many people share the same name? I was searching for a friend in Facebook one day and when the result came there were almost a dozen of them with the same name. The funny thing was my friend was not even among them!
So yes, I'm back from our trip to Australia and Singapore. Tired but it was amazing! Lots of pictures to share... soon. For now... work! work! work! Gotta earn for the next trip.
Floods, ice floes, rampaging rivers, bobcats, rapists, and pedophiles. You live in an interesting location. Surprise ending--you save the bobcat from drowing in the flash flood and in return he saves you from the rapist who is stalking you through the nearby woods. You and the bobcat remain friends for life.[NightListener]
When I was in high school I went on stage many many times. It's a wonderful experience and my old teacher is actually thinking about doing a reunion play soon. :D That would be amazing! I hope they do end up starting a drama club for them. It's so much fun. :)
Thank you for fox wisdom. It is really interesting to know what Native American think about fox. Here in Japan people believe fox and racoon dog sometimes trick people. Most of time fox is much clever than racoon dog. But they can be very dangerous. They make people believe they are in the heaven and walking in safety place then when you make one step ahead you are going to fall the cliff. It sounds so scary but we Japanese specailly old people believe so. So when you are in mountain or places you never been where foxes are living around, be careful about fox . Their sprit always stick your back body then you wouldn't notice there is a cliff but about racoon dog their sptit always stick to your front body so that you would notice a little bit before you are going to fall. So close though. You would be ok with racoon dog .He can be fallen before you but with fox you can be fallen and fox stay on the ground. People afraind of fox but at the same time people beleive they have a strng power to protect people when they want to by some reasons.
Hope you don't catch a cold from getting soaked in the rain. Glad D's play went well. Huck Finn is a much more interesting character than Tom Sawyer in my opinion. If you switch the H and the F, his name becomes even more interesting. I wonder if that was a little joke intended by Mark Twain.[NightListener]
Sounds like Karma is making friends with everyone, and that's nice for both of you. I'm really happy for you in finding her...very nice that you did. Enjoy that play, and I know D is going to be great in it.
You have a great weekend, and hope it's warmer there than it's going to be here......we're only hitting the mid 30's again
Me,either. I never can understand the sport killing a fox. They are so lovely ! The fox festival is related to the fox shrine our compnay has in Japanese garden. They say they keep very old fox sprit in there. I am kind of afraid of it. It sounds always spooky to me. I work for a shipping compnay and almost all of shipping companies do worship to a fox sprit.They believe a fox god help them to sale the sea safety. But I am not so sure about it. I am just being there and chosing sweet things is one of my job there for that day. I don't mind it at all. My sprit is always towards to the universe.
I would love to see real fox running and sitting on the ground someday. I love them more than a fox sprit.
I hope you have a wonderful day with Karma ! [masako]
Our dog Leo likes to eat biscuit specailly the one I make. But actually it was not biscuit I just tried to make a scone but it turned out to be like that. It was when he ate that kind at the first in his life since then he loves them !
Hope you are feeling better now. Here in Osaka Japan it has been cold today. The wind is blowing hard. Another winter has come !
You are Karma are getting know each other more and more each day which is so nice ! [masako]
She is so adorable ! Now you are really into her. I guess if I panit Leo like Karma around his ears and eyes with light brown and dark brown he would look like a little bit your Karma. But there is no way to hide his red nose... It used to be black. When he grown up it changed.
The 10th kindom is great movie ! I love it. There is only one left to watch. So I am going to watch it tonight.
I am glad you and Karma get along really well. I believed things go this way between you and her. She has a nice and sweet eye. And you are the one who can love animals right way. Despite of your nasty memory with the Geramn shephered. I can't imagine how you could get over it and started to love animals. Alesia, you are amazing !
As for me.. I have to deal with the naughty dog Leo. Even he is like that I love him. Maybe there are more to learn from him than dogs I had before.
When my mother is about to leave the house he make a strange sniffing every time. Probably there are some time he has to be alone in the house. Then most of time my mother is with him. But when she has to go out. He probably get a panic. So today was one of those days. My mother left and he made a strange sniffing and I shouted from the upstairs " I am here ! I am here ! You are not alone ! Leo "
He stopped making strange sniffing.
I am glad you sound like enjoy your life a lot lately !
I've been wanting to ask you about your condition but didn't want to be intrusive. Okay, I admit I wanted to be intrusive, but didn't have the courage.
The combination of arthritis and fibromyalgia must be very difficult to bear. I've heard positive reports about the power of gluten free diets in bringing some relief to some conditions, fibromyalgia being one of those mentioned. I hope using gluten free food brings you some relief. Please keep us posted.
Which performers are featured on your Native American Flute CDs? I have several Carlos Nakai CDs which I take with me for driving around New Mexico or Arizona. The music seems to make the spirit of the land more visible.[NightListener]
Thank you for sharing pics with us. It is so nice to see snow melting.
Here in Osaka however seems like the winter came back again. It is so cold. Of course I can not compare the temperature you have there though.
I rent the movie " The tenth of Kingdom " tonight based on your recommendation.
Yes, I agree with you. The country so close each other always has some grudge each other. We should remember what happened in the past but have to bury old harted.
I was relieved hear what Ichiro said this time refering to Korean team. He admited that Korean team is strong ! I think his word soothing Korean team and other korean people also. Last time he made a really mistake to say something toward to Korean team. They got upset. We always having some people so rude in both Japan and Korea. It is depend on each person.
I am so happy to hear there is a Korean baseball player who got in the measure leeeague becasue he is a big fun of Ichiro. There are so many hopes in the world.
I am sorry about E's two aunts. One of them died before she visited her place.
The death is coming to all of us someday.There is no exception. Until then we shold enjoy every second..
I haven't watched either of them " Tipping the velvet " and " The tenth Kingdom ". I would love to see them. Maybe I can find at the rental shop " The tenth kingdom". The story is interesting.
I am a little bit sleepy right now as I have been listening the music box. Mostly for Leo though. He get angry easily so I just wanted to calm him down. Then it seems to work well. Leo starts to sleep... hehe. I want to know what kind of dream dogs can see. If it is nightmare I want to become the one who is sonding a trumpet to take thier nightmare away. I remember I have read that kind of story somewhere before.
Have a nice day with your princess Karma. [masako]
If it's not too difficult to move, why not move the sewing machine back to the living room for a week and see how you feel about having it there again. You like to sew. You should be able to do what you like where you like in the comfort of your own home. When you have visitors, you can hand them a needle, some thread, and a couple of scraps of fabric and tell them to go to town (figuratively speaking of course--telling someone to go to town is not the same as telling them to go to hell). Personally I enjoy having something to do with my hands during visits with friends, but some of the things I think of doing with my hands would not be appropriate. I could use all the guidance and inspiration you could offer. [NightListener]
I love " Pretty woman " ! It is the movie I saw Richard Gere and Julia Robert at the first in my life. I like both of them. Julia has such a bright character. Even when she plays sad part the moive end up not so sad. Always having some hope in there.
Sorry Leo is so noisy right now. The bikes just passed the street in front of the house. I have to go now.
I am reading " What The Neighbours Did " by Philippa Pearce.
I was going to take a hot bath with epsom salts, but first I did the dishes and laundry, and decided I'd better wait for water to reheat to have the tub as warm as I like it. I still haven't made it to the tub. Got sidetracked. After a trip to visit my mom yesterday, the plane returning home was an over an hour late. I'm exhausted. Slept past 1:00 p.m. except for an hour around 5:00 a.m. when I awoke to read.
I have walked with Leo and one of aunt several times. But not with my brother. However Leo wants to walk with so many members of family. It seems like that making him feel good and much safer. But when two of us waking together with Leo he become more naughty so I thought I shouldn't do.
Here in Osaka.. Usually we meet so many people and so many atoher dogs in the park. But what Leo didn't like most is tracks. He hate the sound of them coming close to him. As being a dog he really has good ears. I can't hold Leo and even my brother can't. See how he is a diffucult dog ! Not becasue he weight a lot.
You like the expression " Maigic of the time " ? Thank you !
Yes, I have watched " Notting Hill " before. I liked it a lot. Julia Robert are really paerfect in the moves that are so cheerful.
I want to walk with Leo... hehe He is too naughty to handle for me.
So better to leave him to my brother.
If I was young and don't know about Belly dancing even a little I would probably to see things as my young friend did. I am happy for myself. At the age of now I can see things I couldn't see before.
I feel good to have a friend who has the same taste on the movies...
I am glad you to hear that you liked " Autumn in New York " ! I actually watch it again and again. hehe The character Richard Gere is playing in the movie is like it is exsit for him.
I have watched " The Matrix Reloaded " before. I was a little tired after wathing it. I hope you would be ok.
I close my eyes to imagine you and Karma walking in the forest. It is so nice walking in nature with your dog together.
Maybe if restaurants need to have a dancer they probably chose beautiful one to be there to dance for them. But being just beautiful has a short life for a dancer. Great dancers can teach many students how to dance even after they get old.
Karma needs time to get use to some things at your home. But in some case, a dog never get use to one or two things that he or she did not like (at all). I remembered well that my last dog was always scared of thunder & lightning since he was little - he never grew out of it! Poor thang! So when heavy storm comes, I always let him in and stays below my feet while I do my study on my table or reading a book. I always have him hugged and keep on reading, hushing gentle words to him that I am there - but in times of danger, he stood for me! That is funny! A dog that got panic over thunder & lightning is also at the same time a brave protector! he, he, he ...
[Excomysteriez]
You really got a good company to walk together. Thank you for explanation about Kizmet Blitz. Now I understand. It is true.. Dogs are sleeping with one eye open becasue they are always on watch gading their owners. I felt so when Shiro was alive. Leo does the same.. Leo is doing the same but for different reason. hehe
Karmacita seems to be adding some spring to your step. I didn't get my epsom salt bath today after all. My wife asked me to come help at her office. I hope you get your bath before you turn in for the night.[NightListener]
i want to get a dog...maybe a milky- silky terrior x maltese. I am often home alone at night while my partner is at work and i would love to have something to snuggle with. xoxoxo [xxmelodyxx]
Glad you're back up and running again, and I'm looking forward to some pics of Karmacita....I missed them if you already posted some? [commonsensechristian]
I am sorry to hear that. I hope your sister will be able to write her diary soon ! Tell her please her painting is so much talented. You two are blessed ! [masako]
My mouse will not work either. Since I've been so busy lately, I asked her to pick up her own droppings, but instead she ran and hid under the sofa. I just hope that little critter doesn't expect me to help her when she's in a pinch. What's wrong with mice today?!!![NightListener]
Yes, dogs can attack people especially when they are that not a happy type of pet. It depends also on how the master of those dogs treat & handle them. Most wild or dangerous dogs that attacks are not well taken care off or not really train on good discipline. A few times I was attack by dogs when I was little, but that did not scares me off because I know that many other dogs were tame & very sweet indeed. Anyway, I was a very stubborn kid and nothing can scares me that easily. That's why I had troubles sometimes with my family that they think I got bad habit to walk in the dark in the village. I said to them in the dark you can hide easily from danger and they think that is way too much for a brave little girl! he, he, he ... Yes, it is for sure a hard work to train a little puppy / dog. It takes really much energy, enthusiasm and much patience for such a pet. You really need to be as energetic as your pet!
Hey, I am truly sorry for what had happened ... I pray for your niece, my dear friend. Hope she has a strong heart to bear that pain ....
I am sorry th hear that your niece's boyfried were killed. I hope your niece is ok though. It is a hard time for her. 17 is too young to die. I will send my condolence from here Japan. [masako]
Wow ... you walk that far till you sore? he, he, he ... Auch! Painful. Not really nice for those poor feet. It did happened to me many times when I walked miles away in the nature - there is something about walking in the nature pulls you further away from home. Funny, isn't it? Well, do take care of those feet, my dear friend. And please, do not over do it ever again. he, he, he ... But it is a nice walk, right? Probably next time you can have a long walk with Karmacita and enjoys that lovely time with a good friend. Dog is a loyal friend, you know. P/S:- When you have the time or when you are well, you are sooooo welcome to write to me or to respond to any of my notes, my dear. You don't have to rush over it. he, he, he ... I am not pushing you too. he, he, he ... So, enjoy your day and stay fit, okay!
Good to hear you sounding so content, and there's nothing like feeling soreness from a good therapy/workout session. I could feel your inner peace just flowing thru your words today............. You have a great day Alesia, and enjoy the springtime weather we're starting to have........[commonsensechristian]
I am happy for you ! You've got such a nice puppy. She is your Karmacita you were wating for. It is good that she is not yappy type's dog. Leo is yappy type. hehe A lot of challanging left still. [masako]
In my childhood days, we had once twice a crazy, happy & very active dogs. There were four of them but I am not sure what breed they are. But they are quite small but very strong & healthy dogs. They ate much too! he, he, he ... During the hunting season, my family would bring them along to the jungles and they are really, really brilliant dog.
One of them named Tuto got injured badly after he encountered an old mad wild boar - his stomach were ripped apart and so one of my uncles has to killed him on the spot because Tuto suffered so much. It is such a cruel act but also the only action one can make to stop the pain. Tuto was badly injured and by the time he was being brought home to us in the village, my dear grandfather had him buried at the back yard. I did not see Tuto on that day because I was at school and I was at the same time glad I did not see how injured he was because everyone knows I would cry terribly over him.
The other three live well towards the end of their lives and has been a loyal and great dogs to the family. It was later when I was 16 that I got a new puppy of which I rescued from another village after his owner throw him in the river because he has too many dogs. What a cruel act is that but in such a time when for the villagers such act is totally normal - but not to me. Even my grandfather never agree on animal violence and it makes him really angry when he sees people abused animals for no reasons at all.
Now, this puppy was a cream brown coloured one and has this bushy tail like a squirel. I love his tail and always tend to touch it whenever I can but he never really likes it to be touch there. he, he, he He would instantly put his tail between his legs when one try to touch it! I called him Brownie (exactly English name) but the villagers called him Blowmy because they could not pronounce 'R' at all. That was very funny. But he was never a hunting dog and they try this on him but giving up after a few months trying hard to train him. I told them that Brownie is not a hunting dog but a pet that stays at home.
Years to come, he has always been my best friend and he had saved my life so many times. Once I nearly drown playing with cousins at the forbidden lake, then he saved me from a cobra at the paddy field, then he had faced a mad dog from the other village that did try to attack me and my cousins, and so many more. But Brownie live well towards the end of his life and died happily a pet. He was my very own first pet and it did breaks my heart later when he died - he died that very night while sleeping on my lap. I was 22 - and I knew it that his time would come and so I stayed at the back porch with him alone. My whole family was worried, but it did not took long for me to mourn over Brownie because I got married later to my ex and was gone to Germany on the same year.
P/S:- In between those times, we had also many cats & kittens but those keeps away the rats & mouse or snakes from the house or from the barns.
It's good to know that your mother is doing well after what she has gone thru - though at this time we all know that she is not getting younger anymore. I remind my father that he too, must take of his health and do not overdo with hard work will cause injury or health problems later. But father is not a stubborn - he listens to me. These days he prefer to stay more at home looking after his grandchildren and do something else that does not require too much of his energy. But he moves around a lot to keep his body active.
Most important is that he take care of his diet. Though I send more than enough money every month to him, he used it for good use to buy more veges & fruits - even vitamins. These days fruits are not really available in the jungle because of environmental polution & housing projects. Rivers are also not really clean anymore since years after that side of the area developed with new firsm & companies that throws whatever rubbish in there that killed the main source of meal for the whole village down the rivers. Really very a sad thing but that is what happening in Brazil & Amazons.
I am not sure if in the next years the rivers & jungles would be a safe place even if now the goverment did try to protect the nature by keeping some areas as Wildlife parks.
So, until then, my dear friend ... Thank you for your very long notes and it has always been a pleasure to read your interesting stories & sharing experiences.
Wish you a lovely Sunday from here! See Ya next week then!
Your mother absoloutely thrilled that you are geting Karma ? Maybe she has changed already from being animal's hater. It sounds so nice ! I feel everybody in your family will be happier than ever after she come in your life.
I am soory about your mother's sickness. I hope she will get better soon.
You have a puppy? Since when? I remember in few of your entries or notes that you told me that your mother has never really introduce for the love of pets to you, was it? Oh, I love puppy. What kind of puppy is that?
I am glad that I make you smile and laugh when you read my previous entry. Yes, there are times we are laughing and there are times we are crying & mourning - but life is like this and it is filled with many events & stories. I am glad that I can make every one smiling and happiness is something you cannot just create but happiness is born within you and your heart.
I agree with you about what you said about my nephew. We just need to let him know we are all here for him when he needs a help. When I was young I was irritanted by all of questions that adult around of me made. I won't give him the same.
I hope you get more energy by then you read my note.
And I slept bad thru the night because of my sinus and coughing. Really, really exhausting. Trying not to sleep during the day because then I would not sleep at all in the night then. Well, hope you couldsleep well now since you are extremely tired. Happy Friday, Alesia!
[Excomysteriez]
I wanted to take pictures of my hair too. First I couldn't find the camera; then I couldn't find my hair--except for my first curl which my mother put in an envelope in my baby album. I'm obviously not 25 anymore.[NightListener]
its an old joke....woman goes to see a shrink....he's not paying attention, just writing...asks..when did you start hating your mother. She says, I don't hate my mother..he says Denial...and on and on the skit goes....
Good Morning from Germany!!! It's just 10 am here and I had my late breakfast - due to my terrible coughing I slept not well but slept till late at 8 am. The kids left the house to go to school without saying goodbye - just left a sweet Note on the dining table to wish their Mommy a good day & health. I just saw the two pics of that bag and it is really, really nice. I have just finished a dark blue bag as small as a pouch for my girl Tyra to put in her little pack of tissue to and small stuffs when she go down to the kindergarten. I shall take a good pic of it today and probably put this up here tomorrow - that is if I am feeling well enough to sit in front of PC. At this moment I am just surfing & checking on everyone; anyway, it is good to spend an hour time here to distract myself from my illness.
So, I wish you a good day and wash the mud pie out of your hair! he, he, he ... And snow is melting and springs is in the air. Are some flowers starts to bloom already at your area? Say, where is your house actually? You sounds like you are living really in the middle of nature and in a cottage, I think. Oh, that would be really, really nice to be so near to the woods - I love the peacefulness of such place.
You sounded great as if you do havin fun with what you are doing. Nice to hear the happiness in it. he, he, he ... I too, just had a hair cut about 2 weeks ago - slighty shoulder length. I want it to be shorter than usual because I do not have the time to always tending my long hair. I cannot cut it too short because Andrew love me with my long hair and always playing with it when we both are watching TV. It's a habit of him to do that. he, he, he ... But short hair is really, really easy to take care of.
You just finished another crochet bag? That's is nice - especially the one that you made for your mother - it must look really lovely!
You are so lucky to be able to take a shot of bird's pic at a close range. Usually, they would fly instantly when you approach too near. I hope I have luck to take a good & sharp shot of a bird one of this day. A reading day ... ? What is that? A day where you read your book/books? Or is that some kind of ritual activity? Sounds good anyway. Long ago, Andrew & I used to join a 'Reading Group' with some of really good friends who also love books and reading the same books; some are literatures but not all up to it because not all friends are that 'intellectual' - if you know what I mean. he, he, he ... But since I gave birth to Mike (like 4 years ago), Andrew & I were uncapable to divide that time even if it is once a week reading meeting. I felt sad to be apart from the group because I am a book fan and love reading. Well, got to wait until the kids a little bigger.
Oh, those birds are beautiful! Really lovely pics! Hey ... Is that house at the background sinking in the snow? he, he, he ... Looks like it! Lovely entry, Alesia. I think I shall try to take some pics tomorrow or the day after - I do miss taking pics. But I am still wondering what pics shall I make this time ... Let's see. the journey will lead me there ... somewhere.
It sounlds wonderful ! When you get your Karma please take a pic of her and show me please ! She would be a good company to you. Dogs are faithful. [masako]
Your eyes are quick to see beauty in life. You eyes behelds it there through the lens and you made really good pics. I do miss making pics these days, but I have not really that inspiration to go out and look around as I used too. I think I shall wait a bit till it is springs. Oh, I love the pic with the leaf in the snow and the pine cones; reminded me of seashells on the sands. Really lovely - just looking at it made a sort of peaceful feeling in my heart. Oh, really pretty, Alesia. Hope that you take more shots of lovely nature at your place.
I wish you all the love & joy; the health & happiness. Do take care & Happy Friday. I shall write a little today but my sinuses is really bad. Couldn't really sleep well at night, you know. So, see ya!
Wow they are awesome. Like someone below who said they have never seen snow = me neither. I don't have a strong desire too as I loathe the cold (hence I like living in Aus) but it sure looks beautiful. My nine year old would love to see it![Susans]
I was hoping for a mug shot of the stranger you encountered on your walk. Since you told that story, I can't help but look at that pine cone in the snow and see a CSI victim. [NightListener]
If I had seen these pictures a few days ago I would say how much I missed Maine, and the snow and the "eyesore" of pine cones there. Now I've been in New Hampshire for the past two days and I'm completely sick of the cold and can't wait to go back to California. I'm not looking forward to tomorrows storm at all!
[shameinyou]
Here it is simply just raining every two days; mild but still so cold. Sometimes it is nice to go up in the woods when it is raining easily, but there comes the time the bitter wind makes it quite uncomfortable even for a short walk. But it is nice if for just one day the sun may comes out and shines warmly on your face. For this reason I am grateful that the sun always shining from early morning until late evening in the study room through the glass door - so I can reduce the firewoods. So, in summer the fireplace will stay silent but I cannot wait for this warm season to come. There will be grilling, sitting in the garden all day & late evening, watching the sunset and breathing in the fresh air - and also doing fire camps there and story telling!
Good to hear that you are doing somehow better than those few days ago. Wish you all well, health & joy, my dear friend. Wish you all the sweetness that this life brings to you.
They have DVDs for any type of exercising you might like: belly dancing, tai bo (not sure if that's like Tai Chi or not), and they even have bootcamp style programs. I want to try the belly dancing since one of my favorites does it and she talks about how it will wear you out in a short period of time. You probably read her diary too. lol
The flu has been going around lately, so you may have come in contact with it. I believe that may be what I had. Well, that's what my mom was insisting anyway. lol I just thought it was a bad head cold that I'm almost over. Hopefully you won't be getting sick again anytime soon.
No I don't dislike this time of year because of gardening...infact I don't do much gardening. Husband does this though I enjoy the odd bit here and there, but I do a lot of the indoor stuff. I am not very strong and I don't seem to last long outdoors in the heat etc gardening, the reason I don't like this time of year, is because I hate winter. My son gets very sick in winter and sometimes so do I. But he has a lot of middle ear problems and gets colds all year round but winters worse and I hate those nasty virus's that lurk in spring, autumn and winter. He just starts to get well again over summer. Even his hearing is worse in winter, he has mild-moderate hearing loss in summer and moderate in winter (worse) (he wears hearing aids). Last year was horrendous, we both got about 12 colds and they were all nasty and flu like...so ever since having a child I dread this time of year. Autumn and spring are bad too, the gastric bugs lurk very badly...[Susans]
I know Ive given up on trying to play catch up, it's too hard. I just wish I could have a bit of time every night to stay on top of it because it's what I love doing.
Oh well.
I love Australia and I do love the heat but I don't like the snakes, spiders and bushfires!!![Susans]
middle of winter there....middle of summer here...actually no I just realised 1st March, sigh, beginning of autumn. I hate winter so I dread it coming....have you heard about the nasty bushfires we have had in Victoria (Im in NSW) one of the major downfalls of such a hot climate. It's hard to believe though that most of these fires are deliberately lit
Better safe than sorry, and I bet lots of that snow melted with that temp you had yesterday. Enjoy your soup, and that's what I think I'm having for my own dinner today, too. [commonsensechristian]
Thank you for the email, my dear. I shall read this tonight when the kids are all away to their grandma! h, he, he ... The only time I can be alone, on focus and in peace (especiall when I read) How are you now anyway? Hope that the illness is not to overpowering at this time? I always pray for you, my friend. Stay fit and do take care; make a rest when you need one, okay?
I too, didn't sleep so well last night. The sinus makes it really bad.
So, I wish you a Happy Weekend from here! See you!
You should be able to go to your local bank and get a temporary replacement card for your needs. :) That really does depend on the bank but they should be able to help you out regardless.
I thought you were going to make the glove at the first. It is always troublesome to do it again from a scratch. I have had so much experienced in past. So I know what it is !
Have a nice day, Aleshia.
Talk to you later again. [masako]
I've never heard the term "captured" used with a credit card before. I found a 17 page article on the subject, but don't have time to read it now. I'd like to know what it means for a credit card to be captured. If you don't feel like answering or can't answer briefly, it's fine to let me find out by reading the article later.
It's nice to hear those words are flowing so nicely for you in your story-writing. I haven't been as fortunate lately, but I'm praying that will change very soon. I hope you have a restful and fulfilling weekend....[commonsensechristian]
Depleted yarn inventories sound like a cash flow problem. Hope you find what you're looking for soon.
When you get involved with writing stories, do you carry your characters around in your head much of the day? Do you operate mostly with one character's outlook or do you identify with all the major characters and slide back and forth between them?
Let me give you a BIG HUGS from here - tho' I may been so far away from you! I really, really, really do hope that will has ends to it soon. Probably when the weather is getting better and the fresh springs flowers would bring more joy and light into your life at this time.
Thanks for the notes that you left me - and yes, I am quite happy with the return of my lost friend - but there is so much works & healings to be done for her rather than for me. That's because she has not the joy in going forward and she sees only her suffering which blocked her very spirit to be open. She kept her wounds so near to her as if without her Pain she would not live, you know. Now, that is not really easy but I am there for her always. I mean that is what a true friend is for, isn't it?
I wish you all my prayers and health! Keep fit and keep on enjoying your writing. Perhaps one day you may share this with us here ...
HUGS dearest Alesia! So sorry for being absent for quite sometime. But hey, I'm back to work now and have easy access to internet. So...
Sorry to hear you're not feeling well. But it looks like a beautiful day out there. I dont; knwo with you, but sunny weather and blue skies with a sprinkling of feather-like clouds here and there make me happy and improves my mood considerably.
Spring is early in Afghanistan. My first spring! So I'm loving it. Besides this is a big change to the view here. I never thought I'd ever call this place beautiful. But it is now. Thanks God for small miracles.
Hope you will feel so much better soon. Will keep in touch...
I can't believe 22 inches! I love snow and that's a bit much for me.
I little healthier everyday! Fantastic! Sunny days do somehow make a difference mentally and physically sometimes, don't they? Other than the obvious warmness what do you look forward to the most in spring?
Glad to hear you're feeling better. Also glad to hear the snow is sliding off your roof. I was worried when I saw cc's photos showing the depth of the snow in your area. Do you have tricks for getting the weight of the snow off the roof before damage occurs? [NightListener]
Praise God for your healing,nice to have you back.Yes spring should be here soon I hate all this snow and cold,it hurts my ra/fibro.Good luck on the book.ttyl[Bridgit]
So many of our friends are feeling just as you describe yourself...and it just keeps going around and around. So do the prayers.......[commonsensechristian]
The least you feel better even if it is just a little. Try to think positive about yourself and this could help the body heals in some way. It is the spirit that matters you know. So, I pray for your health everyday and stay strong, my dear friend. And hoping to hear of you getting better soon! Wish you a lovely Tuesday from here. [Excomysteriez]
RYN: I wish you a rapid recovery so you may achieve your Masters and Holistic Therapy goals.
Funny (in a not-so-funny way) how Life throws us physical punches...Some debilitate for life. Others slowly build up, over time, and later *take us down*. There is only so much a body can take before it breaks...!
That you have suffered from such an early age--and for so long thereafter--is traumatizing to read...I can only imagine your Life Experiences...I'm afraid my empathy cannot fathom your pains.
Still, for all that you have encountered, what you express to me tells me that you are *on the right path* to Deep Healing.
Your words have not *made* me concerned. They have triggered in me a certain woe that accompanies compassion for those in pain...I've had many hurts in my life, most of the psychological variety, so for me to read of your physical trauma instills in me a feeling of hurt beyond my experience...And I am sad that it has had to be the way it has for you.
You may have become a stronger person because of everything...Still, I have to wonder at the *tricks* that the Fates play on us lowly humans.
I am not trying to sound like I only think, 'gee, what if it happened this way'...More like, I am sad it *had to happen* the way it did for you to become so strong.
You should know, too, that it lightens my spirit to read of your triumphs!
I sincerely believe you will become the health that you seek. Thank you for sharing.[invisyblninja]
Having soup and honey-lemon tea? Em, that sounds really nice and delicious. I hope you are really getting better soon, my dear Alesia. I winced every time I read about you being ill most of your few entries - I pray for the better health for you, my friend. Yes, go to sleep, rest and please do take care. I wish you a lovely Friday from here.
[Excomysteriez]
I wish it wouldn't take so much time......but maybe you need the rest which the feelings from being sick cause us to take. Prayers sent for you to find that rest, and healing.........[commonsensechristian]
Dog or animals always known it when one is ill - I know that my dog (died years ago) always knew when I am sad or happy, when I am ill or there's something not right in the house. And even with people. He always seems to know a good person or a bad person - when there's a person he does not like he would growl. Scary to see him changed that way but he stood between me and that person as if he stands on guard to protect me. Fascinating that animals has this strong instincts.
Well, as for you, my dear. Please do take care and there's no need to come here when you could not. Just be relaxing and away for awhile to have rest & peace. When you are well, come back and tell us stories of your walk in the nature again!
I clean my kitchen every day and 3 times - every day. Well, always tidy up the mess after breakfast, lunch & dinner! Especially when you have kids at home! he, he ... They can really make such a mess. But I am so glad that my Miya always automatically clean up everything before she's off to her room. Probably the habit of helping her Mama since she was little.
I am glad to hear the least that you sounded a little better. Though short entry but I can see you are getting better. Have you always in my mind, dear. Take care!
Glad to hear you made it thru the appt, and good news on nothing looking out of the ordinary for your eyes. Hope you'll feel better later, and the water is always the best thing............
You take care Alesia, and we look forward to those pics coming up sharing the springtime around your part of the world.
I just left notes in the previous entry and I saw this entry a few seconds ago. That's fast. Yes, you should be relaxing now and do eat something. And drink much, much water. Do take care, Alesia. Been missing your merry and cherry entry. Hope that the springs will bring more beautiful flowers into your health too. Wish you all good wishes and lovely Tuesday from here. I am about to prepare dinner. Just simple Greek salad with cheese and garlic bread. Nothing special. So till then ... bye.
[Excomysteriez]
I wish you could get over this flubug, too; prayers sent once more my friend. Keep on getting your rest, and I hope you feel somewhat better during the eye exam...........[commonsensechristian]
Eye appointment? I haven't gone to eye specialist for many, many years. I hope yours eyes are okay, my dear friend. Sorry to hear how ill you are but despite all of this health problems, you seems to strive always to go forward though feeling so tired and frustrated. I wish you all the good blessings that you need. So, do take care, alright? Wish you a lovely Tuesday.
[Excomysteriez]
So you think she is right that her father were taken to the universe immedately in peace. But not all of them.. From the view of my believe. Those people who did the that bad thing wouldn't be able to get back to the universe in peace. I am sure they are still sufferring becasue of their sin. [kokorokoso]
Oh, you are so talented, Alesia. Be careful for big storm !
I don't know whether it is a good idea the school is moving into there or not. But for me the benefit to keep to study how to dance there has gone away. It was so close from the office I work for. Now the school and Keke's studio are so near from each other. So I go to study it at Keke's studio. But ... My desire of dancing is now get withered a little. I don't know about the future. We are all moving anyway.
I wish I didn't have to get new glasses every year. :( It would seem that my eyes took after my mother though, so I will have lasik surgery to look forward to later in life. *sigh* I'm already almost legally blind!! I mean, I'm obviously not completely blind but if I don't have my glasses on or my contacts in, I can't really make anything out! Not even the big E on the chart. it's kind of scary actually.
Vampires are something Hollywood never grows tired of, and the market for them keeps it that way...............I know Denise and I have sure seen our fair share of them.[commonsensechristian]
Yes, spring is near here but we rather have a cold day today. the tempreture have gotten down sharply since this afternoon. For a couple of days we rally had warm days. [masako]
I'm so excited for Spring! Winter this year has just..taken a lot out of me. This past week has been like a vacation for me. haha Now it's getting colder and Ill go back to having to be cooped up all the time. :( It's supposed to warm back up soon, though. Hopefully Spring is headed in your direction too. :)
I want to be a good cook. But for a while I think I should let it go with my mother. If I will take this part of job at home from her there is nothing she can do at home. So I should be reaching where I can call myself a good cook secretly from her in the near future.
The book sounds interesting. Let me know your opinion when you have finished to read it.
Thank you so much for such a long note you wrote on my entries that related to Chemical. In didn't know about our earth that much. I should read your note again and again. I will write you later. I am sorry I took your time that much to write for me here.
I am glad you feel better now. You have such a positive thinking so you will be healed completely one day.
I was excited about your suggestions! The Pern series is something I've tried to find the name of for awhile. I actually read a couple of the books when I was in grade school and another in high school. After that I lost track of the name until just now. Yay! That was my favorite series back then. i wonder if she has written new books. :)
I will definitely be checking into the list of others you mentioned. I used to read like you do during the summers but when I got to high school, it stopped for no reason. I think it's because I was taking the accelerated courses and had to read the books for those even during the summer. That being said, Lord of the Flies is a great read. haha
I'm currently reading Les Mierables for the second time, the first time I read it was in 6th grade and didn't understand half of what was going on. So I bought it and am now suffering through parts of it because it is kind of tough to read where I havent brushed up on my vocabulary in a long time.
Thank you so much or taking the time to write that massive comment. :) Especially since you had it written yesterday and then your mouse fell. >.< I definitely appreciate it a great deal.
I do like the genre but I'm sort of picky about it. I'm not much on stories like Star Wars or even Star Trek (those are the first things that come to mind when I think of scifi. haha).
There is an adorable little series that my sister is making me read. While it's not exactly the most intellectually stimulating, the books are big on imagination. :) Leven Thumps is the name. It is definitely directed more at a younger age group but she insisted and I have to admit that it is a great story. :D
And thank you! I'm not sure I would have the heart to rewrite a comment like that. >.<
I hope the pain subsides completely soon. What in the world could be causing it?
Also, I was going to ask you if there are any books or series of books you would definitely recommend. You seem to read quite a bit and obviously know your literature. :)
I hope the ache starts fading soon. I know the cold and dampness can get to me mentally and physically. I'd share my sunny day with you if I could.[ifeelthebuzz]
You are right. My body want to move.. more than just sit still. haha
It is so interesting to hear that you also have dreamed this kind of dream. I call it the healing dream.
Your story is interesting. I am looking forward to reading more.
I am sorry to hear that you got such a strong pain in your body. What's really happning in your body ? I hope one of the doctors can give you a big help. Is that came from the hard work you have been making on the computer ? I worry ! [masako]
It is never nice to be ill. You just simply cannot do anything or moving, and not even thinking. It is really not nice. I am sorry for your pain & health problem at this time but I wish all good health & blessings for you at this because you needed it the most. I pray that all be well tomorrow and the next days to come. Wish you well, my dear friend.
the statement in entry 984 is my life. as of last night.
i, too, have been writing since before i can remember...(for a long time)...i can hardly imagine having the ability stripped away from me...it must have been painful at first (beyond physically)...your story is an inspiration![invisyblninja]
When your book being published there I should translate it into Japanese !
I am sure what you are writting is so interesting ! People would love to read here. I need to practice how to translate it until then.
Even you still have a pain in shoulder it is good to hear that it has been better for couple of years.
I am happy to hear that you have the urge & inspirations even to write that much. Really good to hear it despite your health problems.
Anyway, I want to say thank you for the warm notes that you left at my previous entry. Yes, how much understanding & wisdom you can share to me in times like this. You are right about my heart being torn but life is like this sometimes ... those we love will somehow one day go away when the time comes. And so it is for my children - they knew that one day that I too, will go. No one lives forever and for this reason why it is so important that I made our days always memorable in many ways - best memoeries stays forever in their hearts & mind. I want them to remember many things in lovely way, though maybe that sometimes sweet memories makes you cry.
You know, I have so much to write these days but I learn not to rush. I keep on writing according to my heart and reconsider things wisely - it is not always that easy to write a good entry. Because I always tend to try to write an entry that does make sense and some are just simply funny and adventures. Then when I read back my journal I can say to myself ,"This is the story of my life." And forever I shall hold this dear to me of which I will one day share this with my children. I made copies of five diaries now for all of my kids - the same entries (of course) - over the years of which I wrote differently for all of them and so that they know how much I love them.
And this is a great gift that I can thinking of for them one day ...
So, my dear Alesia. I am off now to prepare lunch - chicken again. But not sure how I am goin to prepare it - either grilling or making Marsala (Indian recipes) chicken. My girls were asking about this since few weeks and was forgotten after that. I think I will drive down later to the Indian shop and buy some spices I need. Well, how about you? Still do some chicken too? Wish you a good & lovely day, my friend. Until then ...
When you get it published, I want a signed copy. ;) Hehe. I'm glad you're writing. When you finish it you should bind it in a homemade cover, those are neat. :)
I'm sorry about the pain, though. Do you not have any muscle relaxers?
Thank you for the note ! I asked to people in case they want to read this story.. maybe only two including you. hehe
The second plane strike would have been your father's 59 years old birthday. He died that young but he has been in your heart all the time. You are a happy child in a way. You had a great father and still have him in your heart.
I will translate this story rather slowly.. Sorry I sometimes very tired at night. Forgive me. I will do my best though.
You are welcom ! You also lost your father when you were so small. You might have this good man's DNA a lot.
I made this diary semi- private.. To be honest I want to have people read it though. I am just afraid of that I might be invating Emily's copyright. What do you think ? If it is no problem I will change my preferences. [kokorokoso]
I am Masako. I am working on translating the story.. It is only an page though. I get you one of my favorite here. Now you need to get me as your favorite so that you can read it .[kokorokoso]
It's good to hear you are doing well though the few days was not really your day at all. But I pray for your health always. Have you in mind, honey. And thank you too, for your very long notes. I hope you don't have much trouble to do all those long typing. Now I get what you mean by 'homemaker' - here for the Germans a 'homemaker' means something else - that is a wife or a woman/partner that stays at home and do only housework. So this homemaker at your place is more like a housemaid, right? I have a housemaid and at the same time she is also a Nanny - she took her of chores at home while I am a work (that was before) and also looking after the kids & doing the cooking for the family as well. But usually I did the cooking in the evening and she did the lunch.
But now she comes like twice a week to help me to do hard chores at home which I am not allowed to do anymore - if not I would do all work by myself. A very good homemaker is not easy to find - especially a very hard working, loyal and trustworthy person. Now, my homemaker - Mrs Schmidt is really a very good lady and also a good family friend too. Been with us since my son Mike was born. Now, she is with us for almost 5 years now.
So, my dear I must be off now. Got to do some things for the preparation for the funeral this Saturday. Pray for me, dear .... pray for me that I am strong and until then ...
P/S:- I did went to see a priest but ... I shall tell you this later. Not really a nice story. When I got the time I tell you this. So, till then. Ciao!
I hope she does find a more caring church. A church community is supposed to be a loving, understanding group of people you can go to when no one is available. It's a shame that they weren't there to offer her some inspiration when she was going through that. :(
Oh, I almost forget to ask you this .... My English is okay - but I am still learning this language every day when I write, read and talk to people. Anyway, what is the definition of a 'homemaker' here? What is that exactly? Thank you for explaining. he, he, he ...
[Excomysteriez]
Just came back for an hour walk in the field. It is quite windy today and so I got to cover my whole face. Looks kind of funny, but I got the fun that the wind is pushing me while walking. But I think I am too heavy to be pushed! LOL ha, ha, ha ... Hey, thanks for the notes and I know well of what you meant about the negative energy at home - it is so true in many ways. Though I may think that I am that strong, but being too strong is way too overwhelmed to some - I think I am drowning my family with that sort of strength. I think I must be gentle with myself in a way that I am giving a gentle way in and out for the girls. They are young and they are learning; no one says that life is always sweet as honey - they know this very well. You know, unlike some mothers (most I know) I am different because I have always encourage my kids to talk to me and sharing things. Even secrets.
But there are certain moments when secrets has to stay where it is suppose to be - and that is what exactly my Miya is doing. She is just trying to protect her mother from hurt & much pain. She has learned this strength from me - but now I know what it means to be scared of others's strength because her being so strong terrifies me a bit - because I see the clear mirror image of myself grew in her. Now, we both are slowing ourselves down in healing and we had a long talk with each other almost every evening now. The healing is in a way slow, but steady and somehow beautiful ... Yes, it is a beautiful healing - that's what my Miya said to me. Amazing, isn't it? That a 12 year old can say those words -so mature and so poetic. I am her in many ways and she is ME in many ways too ...
I hope you are okay, dear Alesia. You know, there is no need in replying my notes all the time and in rush. Just take your time. Anyway, I do really enjoy our little conversation in our notes - so much wisdoms that we can share and so much inspirations that I am also learning from you.
I am more than glad to learn to know someonw like you. So, take care ... and see you later, my dear friend!
Uhh? Sounded kind like a long torture. I have never really like it to be in the bus - got headache easily. Not from the noise, but from the crowds and some funny smells from some who does not take a bath for a week. LOL But I tell you, it may be funny, but those years back when I was at the Uni everyday get in & get out from the train is a nightmare. I have no choice but to get thru to it all those years. Uggghh!
Oh, I like watching The Closer, but lately they did not play this on TV anymore. Pity really. So, I watched more CSI - my fav. for the moment. And also Gilmore Girls.
I wish you a very nice Tuesday from here and now I am off to prepare me tea - it is goddamn cold today. Must put in more logs in the fire to make the room warmer! Till then!
I also have so sensitive ears. When I feel sick I always turn down the sound of the TV which make my mother can't hear clearly. But I can.. It is good for studying another launguage though. When I felt really sick I couldn't ride on a train. The sound of the fan made me crazy at the time.
I called the publisher to ask the book by Emily Aoyama in this morning if they have its english version or not. They said they had been thinking about it once though however haven't poblished yet by some reasons. She wrote about her father with 9/11 incident by Japanese.
I am going to translate it good and interesting parts from this story..
This is nice. I can try that recipe of yours. These days staying only at home, I have much time spend on cooking. Been trying new recipes every week. [Excomysteriez]
Thank you for nice comment. I have been searching the book in english version though. Seems like it is only in Japanese .If you like to know the whole story of it I will let you know a little by a little. After reading it I felt really great ! A lot of energy in my body even though it is a sad story at the beginning.
I am still at the office. The bus is coming 6:27. I should go now.
Isn't that nice when some young guys pays attention to you? he, he, he ... Great feelings, huh? Andrew used to get jealous when some guys gets close to me when they noticed that when I speaks about something it drew their attention. he, he, he ... Andrew feels uncomfortable for quite sometime and he came closer to me and pretending to be really cool, you know. ha, ha, ha ... Nice feelings to be the attention of attraction! Yup, intelligence can be a good passport for flirtations! ha, ha, ha ... You sounded really happy and enjoying this. Keep up with the fun! he, he, he ....
[Excomysteriez]
You sound like having a really good time. So nice ! I am glad those young men found you are an intelligent person. From that I took they are also nice people. Things will go to right place in your life from now on. I feel so after reading your diary today.
I thought I should take some pics in the restaurant but I was in not mood last night. I had to forcus on words Keke made last night then.
We met at the Haagen Dazs and went to the restaurant where you can eat all kind and they use organic vegetables and most of them were Japanese dishes.
Here in Osaka there is no wind,either. It was warm in daytime.. So good ! [masako]
You write GREAT poetry..not good. I can't believe I didn't fix that. Sorry! :)
The first recipe really sounds like some something I would enjoy and I'm even going to look into getting the barley you suggested. I do like the stuff and any extra vitamins I can get is a good thing.
My mother is terrified of snakes and even she misses him. I thought that was a little ironic.
I hope you were able to get something that was healthy and pleased your tastebuds. :D
Do you know how to make beef stew? I haven't been able to find a good recipe that could feed a lot of people. It would save my rear in some situations. Family dinners would be much easier for me if I could find one. Just curious to see if you have any suggestions. :)
From the couple of poems I've read on here, I think you do write good poetry.
It is so windy out here. I am going to need to prepare to go to have dinner with Keke and other students. It is 4:45 pm and we are supposed to meet at 6:30 pm at the ice cream shop. It is famouse. I just can't spell it right now !
How stupid I am ! I found your poem in MDD. So I have read your poem. It is so beautiful. I have this funny feeling as we both thinking about the same thing only I don't have that skill to describe it like you. I want to be a bird when my last minute comes as Masako on this world and then fly in the sky and see all of beautiful things !
Please erase my e-mail address under there. Thanks ! [masako]
That's a great idea actually. I should relax and watch a movie tonight too. :) I've been kind of stressed out lately, this might be just what I need.[xthetruthx]
That did happened to me for so many nights. Not because I have worries or stress, it's that the body is not really functioning well as I want it too. I am exhausted and extremely tired all the time and force myself to go to be very early - but then in between 3 - 4 a.m I am wide awake. Strange really. Well, it is not because of pregnancy either but this problem I have it for few years now. It makes me really tired the next day and that makes you really tired for anything else either. Not good, you know. I hope you can sleep well this night. Wish you a Happy Friday, Alesia. And thank you so much for that loooooong notes. Really warm my heart to read it because your words are full of wisdom. There is not a time when I am not learning anything new ... everyday I learn new things and when I hear or read advises, stories or words from others like you - it felt like I just learn your experience on that time at that moment. Thank you once again, Alesia.
I would love to read your book when your dream come true. I am wondering what kind of story you will write. I am sorry those your writting stories are left to your ex's place. You really like writting. It should become your profession. Plus you have known a lot of things such as native American legent and so on. You can write a good story with putting them a little by a little.
I saw you were going to get a storm on the news. Hope it isn't as rough as it looked possible........you keep warm and dry my friend. [commonsensechristian]
This day I too, am sooo tired. Kids got those sinuses again. Influenza problems increase lately in Europe - new influenza viruses everywhere and the whole children in one group in the kindergarten were infected. Not really a nice thing for the parents either. Andrew got flu and a little fever this morning, but he still have to go down to work. Might not make it home earlier because he got to attend a late evening meeting around 7.
Well, it seems that you are doing quite fine tho' perhaps being tired is really a problem. But don't force yourself too much if you can't make it. Important is that you do really need to have more than enough rest and let the body recover in time. Just eat your popcorn and enjoy a good movie. What did you watch last night then?
It is so beautiful way to descrive about cloud and sky. I would like to be a good writter someday like you. However I miss this quality in my writting. Of course one reason is english is not my first language though. Even in Japanese it is hard for me .
When I go to see movie with my two nieces I buy them popcorn. Very big one. I didn't think they can eat them up at the first though. At the end they are all eaten up by them ! I shouldn't have worried.. hehe
You know, feeling tired is still okay for me. But worse is, if I am feeling too tired inside my heart ... then I am too tired to start writing, that is really horrible for me. Because without writing anything in my journal, I know that my life feels empty all of a sudden. Then I am force to search for inspiration to change and to refresh my head and mind to get well in time ... So, I hope you are also getting well in time too, my dear Alesia. Been missing your merry entry or the least a good writing in one or two entry. :) Wish you all love & stay fit!
You noticed they all have " B0940 ". As for me I only check the last numbers then I missed it. Every year the compnay buy about 600 post cards and they are all in the same group that's why they have all " B0940" You really are thoughtful.
Hope that you are getting better in time, my dear. It is never really being ill all the time - I know what. Even for me at this time means also 'healing' and always being relaxing, but it makes me somehow restless for not being able too many things like I used too. Now, I am sitting in front of the fireplace and typing my entry from my written journal. Now, my leather journal looks so old as me. he, he, he ... But it is good that I have a laptop and can just sit on the sofa while surfing the net or working something on it. What a good invention. And it is also good for winter time, the heat from the notebook warms my lap! he, he, he ...
Well, until then I shall see you again here. Been missing some interesting entry from you. Take care and I hope you like the new door. What sort of new door will you have then? ...
I never had a deeper blue sky here in Osaka. It must be so beautiful ! I hope you will get a lot better soon and the conection of the pc will get normal soon.
It's 9:48 am here and I just had a late breakfast. We all slept late and watched 2 DVDs yesterday - but we had a very lovely Friday nite. Will go out to have a long walk up the hills to the forest and spend the rest of the day outdoor on my own. Kiddies going to grandma's place and spend the night and hubby have to go down to work and coming home late. So, I have the rest of the day just for myself. Sometimes it is good to be on your own and you can do things in peace especially reading & writing your journal.
Glad to hear that you are doing fine over there and I know how tiring it can be when you are ill for too long. But keep up with healthy diet, stay fit and have a walk in the forest to breathe in the fresh air! Wish you a happy & lovely weekend, Alesia. By the way, how's the weather over there? Still cold?
Good to hear that you are feeling better. I have one of those crazy smoke detectors as well! Like you, we have to make sure the fan is on before we start cooking anything on or inside the oven, lol[bibbitybobbityboo]
Yay!! I'm glad you feel better. I hope everything goes well with the inspection too. I just hope you don't have a landlady liked I've encountered..the kind that just unlocks the door when she pleases! Is that even legal?
Good to hear you're finally feeling some better Alesia......I hope you continue to improve throughout the weekend, and keep warm up there in that north country. [commonsensechristian]
I want a ball winder! It's so frustrating to sit and wind up a ball of yarn because I usually have to employ the help of my boyfriend. So many tangles!
Those looks comfy! I wish I can make those. he, he, he ... At this moment, I am knitting baby socks for my baby. So, before he or she comes I made those and 2 cardigans are just finished. Since I am not working anymore I have much times for such things at home. I do enjoy this very much. Yesterday night, while watching TV I did made three baby pillows complete with three of its pillow sheets. I want to make a baby blanket but I still have a nice one from my little daughter. So, I made up baby curtains with pretty laces! Andrew thinks this is really lovely because he sees how excited I am for the coming of this new family member. Can't wait. We don't know yet either it is a girl or a boy - but I do not want to know this time. I would let the Lord surprises me! he, he, he ... So, till then, dear Alesia. And take care! Glad you are okay now. [Excomysteriez]
At least you got feel better. It is good you feel hungey. I am sorry about your 15 years old niece..Your idea If she was your daughter... is good. I hope she can get those training soon. [masako]
These days you seems not to be well and I pray for your health so that you may stay fit in the next few days. Just take care of myself. Here in Europe, we are being attacked by some sort of new influenza viruses lately. Few were died from this and not even the vaccination did work out. Really pretty scary. Strange that every year, the experts reported there were too many kinds of influenza viruses and the medical department trying their best creating new medicines of sort every time when the old medicines did not help or work.
I pray for you that you will be healthy soon! Take care, my dear. You are in my mind.
Sorry to hear that Alesia.....hope your resting relieved the immediate symptoms of that horrible nauseated feeling. Prayer sent for you to feel a healing touch soon......[commonsensechristian]
Try keeping a small bottle of hand sanatizer in your coat pocket use after touching anything. Spray antibacterial stuff on door nobs, and handles, toilet handle, sink handle, phone, tv remote. At the store, use the antibacteria wipes on the karts, and on your hands. Stay away from anyone coughing or sneezing, hold your breath if your near one. Not for long or you'll pass out like i almost did..lol but do this and you won't get sick neary as much. I haven't been sick in a year. I mean with a cold or flu or anything like that. But i hope i don't gikx it. lol Love you, Pam
I have watched " Batman Begins " already several years ago. So seems like I can understand " Darl Knight " smoothly.
I went to wath " Memoirs of a Geisha " at the movie theater,too. The heloine was Chinese actress not Japanese though. Since I like movies that has her in. So I was happy to see it. I am Japanese so slicely different thing in the movie from our culture I can tell. The way they dressed up is a little bit different from original Japanese one. Specailly how to put belt around the kimono. And Geisya's hair style. Only a little bit though.
Even though I like that actress though. It is kind of sad to know there was no Japanese actress the director wanted to get her in his movie. Since it is the story of Japan.
After I was watching it with one of my friends, my mother and Kana went together to see it. I guess it was still difficult to understand what is going on in the movie for Kana that time.
:( Viruses are never fun. I'm kind of glad I didn't go to the doctor and decided to just take it easy instead. It seems like everybody has pneumonia around me. O.O I don't want to know if I have it or had it. lol
That sounds extremely terrifying! I'm so glad you're okay! I guess it's just a really bad phobia. But my dad has been living in VA during his childhood and moved to Ohio for his college. I think he's a rather good driver. And I'm sure he can teach me winter driving. I hope, thankfully it hardly snows badly in Northern VA now. Thanks for your comment. I hope you get better! Take care, Denne.
I feel the same way as you. I feel when the typhoon is coming. The reason is the low pressure I guess. Here in Osaka we have some strong wind coming and going. I live near the river so the road in front of my house the wind blowing so furiously. I don't feel the same way when I see the full moon in the sky. Maybe I just haven't noticed what wrong in my health as the moon is too beautiful.
Hope you will get better soon. Crochetting thing is waiting you.
Snowstorms? I mean, up until well, a month ago. I thought snow was absolutely wonderful. But as I age towards being able to drive - I think it would be SUCH a pain to drive around on ice covered roads. It scares me sometimes. Snowstorms are awful. I hope my kids don't grow out of it too fast, like I did. ): sorry to hear you're still sick - it sounds as if your got a migraine. Does this happen often?
Thats too bad, I hope you do feel better in the coming days.
I hate storms, not so much the thunder. But the bright flash of lightning that scares me the most! ):[myfirstimpression]
I can't wake up that early to shovel snow !! I can't believe it . I can undertsnad why you told your mother not to get B and C as her company to wake up doing it.
In that time you and your boyfriend were so young. No wonder why you two couldn't stnad up to your parents. But seem like the time came to get start over your life. I will send you a lot of power to be able to fix the relationship with him from Japan far away country from you . I really hope at least you two can be good freiends again !
I am sorry about the homemaking. They shouldn't have you waitting such a long time.
Sometimes my wife will entertain thoughts about my health that will create certain fears in her mind about my possible illness or death and from the vantage point of that prevailing bombardment of fear she will speak to me strongly about my belly fat. Along with her concern for me as well as fear that I'll drop off suddenly from the earth and leave her quite alone...there is a subtle tone and I become exasperated by her messages ,feeling stressed and nagged upon. Now typically, men,will not enjoy this sort of thing and will tend to run away or withdraw or fight the wife instead of her fears. The reason why her words cause so much stress and hold so much power over me is because on the inside;I believe them more than she does. The solution is to do what I don't like to do and thereby assure both of us that a practical remedy is available and doable (is that a word?) The solution for me is exercise. The only way I can make exercise work is to relate it to video games which I have a strong fondness for and thereby allowing an element which I do enjoy bond in some way to the tasks I don't particularly care for. If the special art and photo projects you do ,bring you a certain energy and contentment and joy...then the other affairs of your house must not have the same appeal from the vantage point of your present physical capability as well as confident esteem and worth related to what is really hard to do. If you can find something artistic in the tasks that have been impossible or very difficult for you to accomplish then perhaps a creative thought process could possibly energize you. I know that our creator did not want us to have to face stress from our loved ones' words but would much rather their fears surface so that we can learn how not to react with such fragility and attempt to listen to the deeper hearts' words they are not voicing. My wife loves me and needs me but that is not what she is communicating with her words. Her words suggest that fear is the strongest power at work and I have at my disposal some small way to begin to remedy this without getting bent out of shape by what she says.
Something the Lord provided for me in the way of wisdom was the following:
Words are spoken with three hidden or evident factors behind them:
1) Motive
2)spirit
3)presentation
If the Spirit behind the words is holy then we need not war against anything. If the motive is good then the speaker is sincere and can be trusted. If the motive is good but the person is sincerely wrong because there is a manipulative spirit...then we show our appreciation for their sweet motive but do inward battle with the spirit of manipulation and /or the fear or diabolical root of it. If the spirit is good and the presentation is lacking then we must reckon the message to be valid and excuse for the season the weakness of their presentation. Presentation could be the raising of the voice (we may be able to continue listening but at a distance such as in the example of needing to use the restroom but not wanting to miss the message..they can speak outside the door thankyou,where my ears won't hurts so) You can receive assistance and there is a way to do it while at the same time re-learn what is really being said to you that doesn't always get spoken . I wish you well with this and hope that you'll find great wisdom and clarity of thinking in your future endeavors. I could honestly picture your photos and other artwork at various places all around your home as a testimony to the unsearchable kindness of God to you and your life. But that is only one opinion...Very dear regards to you!
I hope you've already gotten to eat by now! I've had to do fasts before. They are not fun at all.
Well, I've been having so many issues with my sinuses. It seems like they aren't ever fully cleared up and the next cold hits. Then of course whenever I get any sort of cold it heads straight for my lungs. My body is just so tired. It has put my blood sugar, my bloody pressure, heart rate..everything completely out of wack. It hasn't been normal since somewhere around the beginning of April. I have no idea what to do with it! lol
These days for me are like days of open battle field where I walk on grass of thorns - I freely walked on this thorns and bleed. I never deny that I am suffering just Andrew was or still is, but I kept well my pain in me rather to let this ruin me. Though there are moments I do want to give up, but then my responsibility as a mother and wife is the first priority to make sure that at home the life of my children goes normally as it should be. No one says or tells you how you should lead your life, but a 'Mother' and a 'Wife' are titles put by God for us women once we have children and got married. It is a blessing and I am blessed to be one.
But, it is really hard not to know of how to manage this one problem that can cause so much misery and suffering. I have not intended to read that part of Andrew's journal, but then I did accidentally did. I felt such a horror that grips me tight in my heart as if an invisible knife stabs me right there, you know. I could feel that the knife is still there and I keep on holding my chest as if it were real ... the pain is anyway so real.
I suffered much but this is how it is to be on a healing journey - the same as the title of your diary here. So much to learn at the same time no matter how much I have learned in the past years of my life; for as long as I live I will still learn on the way. I hope I shall find the enlightment that I need and prayers that gives me comfort. I stand strong as I could, Alesia. I felt so abused by my own pain and so is Andrew ... I am not the only one. It's just that it is so hard to be honest with him these days when I knew too well that he hides from me even if he stands next to me and to talk to me. He is shrinking away but the lips gave away a sweet smile at me ... Oh, it is such a terrible feeling really ...
If only I knew the way out from this locked box of mine ... I have not the key to open it.
Anyway, thank you so much for your notes. I really need this from a good friend. God bless you, Alesia, and you are always in my heart.
I do things like that! My body has no respect for sleep. haha Well that and I have been sick for so long that I'm just letting my body sleep whenever it wants to. Otherwise I wouldn't be getting any at all. I've developed a terrible case of insomnia. I wish it would go away. lol
I bet those were some pretty pictures! I don't think I've ever taken pictures of hail.
Thank you for your pray. She got a period just a little before. I don't know it is a good thing or a bad thing for her. As I think having a baby might be able to change her husband at least a little.
People in Obama city is really funny !! Yes, I would love to see your president Obama visit them someday soon. They would be so happy to see him !
From what you said I take he really miss you. I don't know why he actted shameful of you though. Are you going to talk to him friendly If he shows his repentance for it to you ?
It is getting cold here in Osaka Japan. We may have some snow next week.
I am glad to know that you got a lot recovered your health ! It is good people from old time didn't recognize you becasue you look much heathier than ever.
You did the right thing on him. You are right you need to have someone who treat you right, somone who won't give you the feeling that he ashame of you. If I get a boyfriend in the future he should be also like that.
Did you know, Alesia. We have a city called " Obama " in Japan and they want to meet your president in the future. They have already offered him to join the big event that was held in the USA for him though. They are not Americans so they got a refusing note. haha I think it is kid of stupid thing to do though. Anyway people in Obama city waiting him to come in their city. They even clapping their hand as watching the TV knowing he was won in the election. So funny !! So crazy !
I voted for him. :) I just really really hope we haven't put to much pressure on him. He's only just one man who has to have the baking of hundreds of other people to get anything done. Of course, he has already started working on some plans to turn the country around and that is something I don't believe other presidents have really done. Maybe I've never really paid attention a President-elect before. This was the first year I was able to vote in a presidential election.
Oh I know, the scarring will be there for the rest of my life, not such a big deal. Just didn't want anyone to think I don't shower. haha. That bag is definitely not worth the money..but I like it anyway. I'm not sure I'll ever carry it to anywhere but a special occasion considering I would get mugged just for the purse...lol.
I have to go get my driver's license turned tomorrow. I should have done it before now, but I have been laaaazzzzzy.
You have saved me! Bless you! haha. Your instructions worked perfectly. Oh my gosh I can't tell you how much it was bugging me that I couldn't figure out how to post pictures even though all of these people were trying to help me out. Woohoo! Amazing! Yay!
I hope your facebook brings you closer to a lot of people. :) Routines are good most of the time. Well, as far as sleeping and eating habits go. I should find one that works for me.
People tell me the same thing; that I look better then I did 5 years ago. I looked slightly different back then...we won't get into it. ha! But it's hard for people to recognize me too. :D I'm glad you are a lot healthier now.
If I were you I just try to write him a letter saying " I am sorry about myself I was not be able to see you in hospital long time ago.. " I think he has a right to know why you couldn't do it. But it all depend on you whether you will give it a try or not. I am kind of afraid If you get hurt more.
If you want to give it a try. You just need to write down what you have written to me about him. If I were you I would avoid to write things that indicate you still love him deeply. It should be more casual not heavy. I just hope you two will get a new start to be just friends.. Then after that things must be easy to go.. I think the time will bring you an answer . Shoundn't be in hurry.
Taking a massage sounds really great. I haven't gotten it yet. I want to try it someday.
It would definitely be more beneficial to her and her boyfriend if she was herself all the time. He needs to learn to be less sensitive and she should never have to act like something she's not.
I hope you don't feel to awful with all the flu bugs going around. :(
Wow ,the male version of you!!!. What a concept and what profound observation on the part of a 14 yr old!... Thank you again for your words. ....One cannot afford to change onself in order to leave a false impression so as not to lose a degree of friendship. Your concerns are valid. But you are perceptive. If S's friend is as perceptive then perhaps he already knows and makes room in his heart for her anxieties?!... About a daughter whose father is not there....It is the most difficult father wound...the absent father, that is. The frailties that are present in the lives of children whose father is absent are many...but when the Mother who remains does not nurture...then we have a vacuum for a miracle. Many children in these circumstances grow up very angry and destructive.Compassion (personifying again) in this instance must be permitted to revisit the element and memories that Indifference suffered that remain unprocessed,otherwise the body and soul will be continually triggered by any item from the past not dealt with. For most of us,this is very painful,and we lack the capacity to go there. We will go there with someone who has more capacity then ourselves so that we may feel safe and protected but otherwise...these areas only fester in the background.
The annointed one is always ready and willing to travel there with us at any point along the way where our memories remain unfinished and unprocessed. He wants our wholeness (as you already know) more than we want it ourselves.
Hi Alesia,thought I would stop by and see how things were going for ya.I would just be honest with your friend iam sure she can handle it.I pray all works out.ttyl[Bridgit]
HMMM...Let's think about this for a second or two. If you ever remarried to a wonderful man named Buck.....Dear, It's a Buck...or Buck ...It's a deer...LOL![Wisewatcher2]
Thank you again for your kind words, Alesia. I have to say that when I read your entry I became fully aware that the Lord has dispatched angels to you, for this trip. Reason unknown by me. It must be a Father thing. I come into agreement with His will for your safety both in your emotional and physical health and your spiritual well being. I hope your week and weekend proves successful. I'm still asking Him to touch your body for excellent health. He is a breath away...O Immanuel.
Do you think S had known what happened on your marriage with your ex ? And why you couldn't visit him in hpspital ? ( Because you thought you never get back to your ex If you met him in hospital. )
It is not that all of people can fall in love with somebody else like that. I never had that expericne in my life so far. Mine is only trivial to compare to yours. My case is I fell in love with somebody that I shouldn't have. So it lasted only 3 months. I am the one to get it end. I think that is ok. He was a marriage man. I was so young. I was so silly. That's all.
He keep to be single. I am wondering there is any way you can get back to him... I hope ! So you have seen him from time to time after that accident happened on him. Do you think you both can get back to just be friend each other at least ?
It is the end of might of 2008. I hope you have a nice end of year there .
Talk to you later.[masako]
I just prepared grilled chicken and now it is grilling in the oven. I can see a bit of smoke inside. he, he, he ... Wow! You waited that long just to renew your license? Why do you have to renew your license? In my country you can have only one time license forever and not renewing it. How many times must you renew this? Must be a very frustrating kind of thing. I mean, why not the goverment consider it for some people like you or people with families or not be able to come just to have a long time (forever) license. Must be really annoying for you then.
Anyway, I could only wish you a happy day and a nice time. Enjoy your chicken! I too, are possessed of eating chicken these days! ha, ha, ha ... But I love chicken more than other things. So, until then, Alesia ... Bless Be your day!
I hope you will feel better soon ! I may be taking your time to write to me. Thanks for your comment !!
But I think my grandmother was either not right to tell me like all of marriage life is unhappy. She needed to tell me there are some good happy couples also but I guess she didn't know any. I agree with you just getting married to somebody is not goal of life. It is just a start to get through so many things. You just need to prepare to be strong enough.
I am wondering what he looks like. I mean the guy you loved before and you still keep him in your heart. He might be really serious about you to get married to. Before that he just could find a right woman for him. So that people thought he was not serious about women.
I am at the office today. I need to clean my desk and others in the office.
I love the first one. I have always love those things. At home, I made mine these too. Have always been possessed of making my own curtains, bed sheets, pillow sheets, and anything that I think I would want to make with these two hands of mine. Hope to see more of your work, dear! And wish you a nice day!
[Excomysteriez]
Thank you for your comment. Since I am not a native English speaker so please overlook the short note I make every time. It is still hard to write a long one in English for me. haha
First of all I have to say you really a strong woman. You got through that hard time with your ex and your parents specailly your mother. But I think she thought at that time it was best to do for her from those reasons you said. Of course it was the wrong decision. She may really regret what she had done to you and sorry to both of you and herself. I can sense that from what you have been writting about her. She loves to see your photos and things you made by your hand.
I have no idea If I were you I can reach where you are now or not . It sounds so hard to me. Yes, you can make yourself happy without a man. I think the same though. Now I think I have a space for a good man. I will make him happy !! I want to become a woman who can make people around me happy. So I have a lack of idea to enjoy the morment how he feels about me or not. Maybe I am not feminine in a way. Ugh !
About children.. There is no chance to have my own anymore.But probably I was not so eager to get one even when I was young that's why I keep being single u til today. I have never been pushed to get married. More than that my grandmother always said " You look so happy. Because you are single. You can enjoy your life more than those who get married. " Can you believe that ?
I was rasied that way.
But I found out later on my grandmother regret her marriage with my grandfather. He was not bad man but she had to deal with so many sisters and brothers of her husband's side and mother in law. The time was bad for women in Japan. It is only 65-70 years ago though.
I will chek " Earth Angels " later. It sounds very interesting !
I like the pattern of the first valance !! It make me feel happy.
What you wrote me before here in my enrty is very interesting ! i have to confess I am definitely your friend B type. I can fall in love with only the voice of guy if he has nice voice and talking nice story. I am not in hurry to find soneone nice for me. Still at the age of 49. I can not give birth to a babay anymore. So there is no reason I have to be in hurry.
I don't regret of having no child my own. Yes, I love kids. Specailly kids who look like angels.
However I feel like having some children here in mDD. Even though most of them are sounding more adult than me . haha
I am sorry about your unhappy marriage. If you got married to him by your own thought. You just blamed yourself and in a way you could accept your mistake 100% though. Maybe your parents got a deep regret of giving their adorable daughter to a monster .
To be honest until I heard your story I@didn't know that in the USA there is such a way of getting married to exist. I thought everybody find their husband by thier own. I mean romance comes to first between a couple .I thought your country is so modern in so many ways. So I was really suprised !!
But I am glad you are now in safe and are ready to find someone nice. Even though you had to spend sometime to understand there are also nice guys around in the world .
Lately i noticed Vanessa started to write you her comment .She is only 21 years old but sounds really adult. Don't you think so ? I like both of you so much .
I'm glad that companies make the food that you need. :) It's probably healthier then the stuff I eat. I'm guilty of not being that healthy in general.
I usually do the same things you mentioned, about observing people..paying attention to them but this year it kind of sprung on me and my boyfriend especially is not a very materialistic person (not that the people you know are either. :) ). He doesn't talk about things he wants a lot. And I know that it's not how much it costs, but the thought that goes into it. I just felt guilty that I couldn't find the things I felt would create an emotional attachment. lol They seem to have everything! Both him and his mom. I think next year I will either give her that photo frame or make her a blanket. :) She seemed really interested in my crocheting. She's a big craft wiz. Baskets, bows, scrapbooking. I wish I had all that creativity! Maybe I can work towards it. haha
I'm sorry the weather has been uncooperative but at least you made it home safe and sound and so did B. Hopefully you won't have to get out with it being that bad again. I know that we have been experiencing some unusual warm weather here so maybe it will come your way too.
Thank you for your reply but don't go searching your books as I have found the answer. On re-reading (for the umpteenth time) I realised that the diamond shape was just another form of parenthesis as the traditional forms had already been used. My interpretation seems to be the right one as the pattern is now coming along nicely. Thanks again for your help and all best wishes for the New Year.
Oh, I didn't know that inuit of Alaska has 20 different words to descrive the different type of snow. I didn't know that one word in English could mean 50 different things in Hebrew /Greek. Japanese also has some different words to descrive about snow. Hyo.. Arare.. They are different type of snow.
I can agree with you one person can't be gifted in all areas. We should be appreciate to what we have now.
Thank you Alesia. This year I coould make a really good friend like you. I hope you will have a nice new year !
Hi There Regency Square fellow crocheter. I hope you had a good Christmas and are looking forward to the New Year. Unfortunately I had to bury my little kitten today who lost it's struggle against a urinary infection. To take my mind off things I decided to carry on crocheting my Regency Square which was going very well. However I got to Round 13 and came aross a new diamond shaped symbol which I cannot interpret. I have trawled the internet and my own reference books to no avail. Please could you illuminate my rather dim brain!
Sounds like you had a fun day! You're a great writer, by the way. I also write stories, short stories, actually. I just posted one, though it's kind of in a weird format.
[Tiana123]
A kitchen will never really be large enough. People such as yourself always make room for more people and the result is that the kitchen is now smaller.What delightful things happen in this realm though! When there is little and that little cramps our style...Our creativity comes alive and we begin to think..."If only"....Thank you Lord for small because it provokes me to think big. My faith expands. My mind spins with ideas. I sigh a sigh of maybe someday and I go about my business being thankful for the largeness of my small area. Thankyou Alesia for your comments.I trust that your holiday will be peaceful and sweet.Let God show you His photos.Much regards!...Tommy[Wisewatcher2]
I am glad you liked the tree I post its pic in MDD.
SGI is based on Nichiren's buddhism and his doctrine however weren't accepted by the leader of Japan that time. It is probably 750 years ago or so. So Nichiren were caught by the leader of Japan and when he was goiong to be excuted, some comets sudddenly appeared in the sky from some where and executioner got the light in his eyes and couldn't kill him. He lived to be 61 years.
http://www.sgi.org/ I guess you can open this website. Please visiting there. You can learn more about my religion.
I am sorry to hear that you feel so sad.. I think your sister still haven't understood what a wonderful person you are ! Yes, you are the one who should chose how your birthday goes. Not your sister.
I hope storms are not so severe. Even though you can get a white Christmas there. It should be having a nice setting on the weather.
SGI is short for Soka Gakkai international. Thanks for asking me.
Happy Birthday, Alesia ! Your sprit is always free no one can get you chained. [masako]
Your very welcome. I will always be here for you. Awww! Your Christmas traditions sound so beautiful and special. I had my christmas time with my mamaw mary sunday, i got 2 cds, and a headphone set with a mic for myspace karaoke. :D
Your chicken and lobster sounds so yummy!!! And the marinade sounds sooooo goood wish i could try it! :D
Yeah stay strong around them. Don't even let them know that they hurt you, appear strong and they will not get any more power. See they see your weak points, they know where to attack you with the words, but if you act like it doesn't hurt, they will back off. And you could always just tell them off, and then walk away. Stay Super SUPER STRONG!
Your welcome Alesia. My counselor always says, tell people what you need to tell them. And you are not responsible for the way they react to it. So tell them people how you feel, because what you feel does matter. Your feelings are important.
Your birthday is a day for you, not for them. Don't even let there words hurt you, let them bounce off you as if you have an invisible sheld.
Happy birthday sweetz, Im here for you! I love you so much!
I think you should stick to your guns. Don't let them control you. Talk to someone about this. Don't let them upset you. Just refuse to shed one tear for them.
You have chicken for Christmas?? Nice! I prepared a big turkey and steaks (German style). We will be fat for a week and after the New Year. But I do not have to worry about that at this moment - one must learn to enjoy. Say, thank you for all the notes and sorry that I have not be able to response to all of your entries. Got sinuses & heavy flu problem for weeks. The kids are still ill but they are getting better now. I still got the coughing for nearly 3 weeks now and it is simply so terrible. For now, I am busy preparing for Christmas. Andrew & I will go up to the cottage in the woods to celebrate with the kids, mother and 2 of our good friends also coming. We shall stay up there until New Year. I am indeed happy with this because the kids are way too excited about it all as well. When they are happy, then I too, would be very happy as well.
Where are you going to celebrate Christmas? At your place?
You really had to get through so much things in your life. I can undertsnad even though I don't have an experice like you had. 5 more children get into the house is really tough thing. Some of time only you were only child who was not related to others.
My aunt Sachiko used to do crocheted lace. But not any more. Maybe it became a tough thing for her to do these days. But she was making pretty nice one. I post some pics of lace work in my diary so when you have time please visiting me. I am not sure I can keep doing it or not. As you said just watching them on the book make me happy,too.
So many places in the USA sound like having a lot of snow. Maybe too much in that proper way to say . The snow globe I wanted to get was already sold out. I just need to wait another chance. hehe
I want to learn to crochet socks! I can make blankets and scarves and anything else that doesn't require a seemingly difficult turn. :) Is there a good site or something you could recommend? I'll add you to my favorites since my diary is semi.
Wow...you know alot of people who only have one letter in their names!
Just an update from me
V is really acting slutty b and d are in their last trimester and P and H are getting a divorce becuase P has been sleeping with all the vowels A, E, I, O and U--and yes..sometimes Y....
Lately you are so energetic to write your diary so catching up to what you was writting here is kind of challenging to me.
So you are a wineter child. I know how adults around you can be forgettable your birthday when you were child. After 3 days from Christmas is like your mother wanted to have a party or give a present for both for Christmas and your birthday. By the way I am a summer child. 21th August is my birthday.
Maybe it is one of reasons why I suddenly felt like buying a snow globe. Your place now having a lot of snow. Perfect setting for Christmas,isen't it ?
My book arrived here. The title was written by Japanese. Yes, it is published from Japanese book company. I don't know whether I can make it myself or not though. As you said just looking it make me happy. I am the same as you. We seem to be really connected. I will post a pic of the book later on my entry.
Thank you for your comment. I really appreciated it. Unfortuntely I have no time to write tonight. I will write you later. My book is coming tomorrow !
Woah you are unstopable, my friend! No wonder you are exhausted. Slow down a bit... watch more movies... without doing anything on the side.
I don't know some of the name of those flowers. But I do have a picture cyclopedia of ornamental plants at home. I am in Kabul now so I won't be able to look at it to identify these flowers. I used to do that, even including the scientific name. I guess I'm just being lazy lately. Hehehe
Looking forward to those pictures of your creations...
You did finish the bag ! You make everybody happy around you with your hand made things.
I think I saw the crescent moon last month. I don't know it is the same one you mentined or not though. The shape of it was like a plate that you might think you can put some sweet things or fruits on it. Unfortunately when it comes to starts we can't see them clearly in Osaka.
I oredred the book I wanted to get through the internet today. I found Amazon book store has. The book show a lot of beautiful pattern for crochet. Maybe I should have ordered another one that show me how to crochet for beinner but it was irresistible !
It is good you found nice gynecologist. They should be having enough imagination how their patinets feel on this situation or on that situation. It is that I want them to have.
You saw that beautiful moon !! Our places are far away from each other but the moon is the same. But I was not sure you could see the same beauty as I did. I am so happy to hear that. Yes, there is one more person who also saw it from MDD. She is now in Afghanistan. So far including me three people saw the moon with ring around. I feel it was kind of fantasy world.
I went to buy a book for crochet yesterday. I found very beautiful book the other day but it was kind of expensive. I was in between whether I should buy it or not for a month. While I was in between the book was gone from the book store. Maybe I should check Amazon book store.
I often go outside for having a fun but I haven't had time to make ssomething nice by my own hand lately. My first try was a brown color's sweater. It was when I was 18 years old or so. I am kind of having a nostalgic feeling right now.
What a persistent soul you are! And hey, your idea about putting things that I need to finish within sight is brilliant. I should do that. But I guess I should not apply that to things related to work. I guess it will stress me out. Hehehe. But I know it will work wonders on the little creative things that I used to love doing. Thanks for the idea.
I would love to see pictures of your recent creation after you finished them. Looking forward to it...
) , so how was the MRI thingy ?...hope it was reassuring ?...and hope u r feeling good right now ?
. I'll be praying for good results on this MRI, and for you to find relief soon. Congrats on the weight loss, and every blessing that has come with it.......
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!...will u mind if i asked why u hate ur b-day ?
Well, what can we do ... Nature is working it's way and so I just accept this. 
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. So get out there and let Karma enjoy it, too.
and that is really very funny. Well, today I shall cook some chicken too. But not curry or soup; not grilling - but I will grill this chicken in the bamboos of which Andrew bought from the Asian shop here. I told him to bring the least 8 - 10 bamboos because I want to send 1 to my mother-in-law, 1 for Donny (Andrew's bestfriend) and 1 for my good neighbour. 
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It is good to remove rash from the road for Karma's sake. She can't be hurt this way. 
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. Prayer sent for you to feel a healing touch soon......[
They shouldn't have you waitting such a long time. 
My dear friend Alesia;
